WANTED

You and Tyson?!{Chapter Eighteen}

It had been a month since Tyson literally begged me to stop hurting myself, um...well let's just say I wasn't hurting myself that much.
I sometimes did slit my wrists, only because I had nightmares about Bob, and I wanted to numb the pain.
The nightmares weren't that frequent or scary anymore, but I still woke up screaming and Tyson would come and comfort me.
So most of the night him and I stayed awake eating junk food( well I ate junk food and he ate healthy food),or we'd watch movies in his room.
One night when I woke up screaming, I rushed to the kitchen to get a knife(to numb the pain)only to find out that the knifes were nowhere to be found.
I knew exactly who had hidden them.
So I stomped upstairs to Tyson's room and started banging on his door.
He opened the door looking super pissed and gave me a long speech about slitting my wrists.
I told him what I thought of his speech and turned on my heels to walk away, but he grabbed my arm and pushed me up against the wall (gently of course).
He placed his hands on the wall and leaned close to me,"Courtney, we spoke about this,"he whispered.

"Tyson,I don't care," I said crossing my arms and glaring at him,"You have no right to tell me what I can and can't do."

He shook his head and and sighed,"One day you are going to accidentally slit your veins and what do you think would happen? I will tell you what would happen, you'd die."

He did have a point, but I was too pissed to care,"Well then I guess I have to cross that bridge when I get there."

"Damn it C!" he exclaimed then softened his eyes,"I love you and don't want to loose you."

I felt bad for hurting him, in fact I felt horrible.
I sighed and kissed him lightly on the lips and wrapped my arms around him,"I'll try to stop, okay? I won't promise you...but I'll try to stop."
He hugged me tighter and kissed the top of my head.

Hacker and Speed were arguing when I came downstairs the next morning.
Boys will be boys.
"Well I want to test it." Hacker exclaimed,"I'm the oldest!"

"By three days only." Speed shot back,"Come on dude, I want to go first, then you can go second."

"I don't take being second lightly, I am always first." Hacker said.

"Yeah yeah, whatever." Speed retorted.

"Do you have to argue so damn early?" I asked walking up to them.

"It's all Hacker's fault." Speed said,"He won't let me test drive the car, and I have dying to drive the car. It was delivered early this morning and I want to drive it."

"Wait wait, someone came here this morning?" I asked not liking the sound of that.

"Relax, we know them and besides they don't know that you're here." Hacker said noticing my worried expression, "So relax."

Somehow that did not comfort me, I just had a bad feeling about this.

"How about we both test drive the car?" Speed suggested looking at Hacker, but Hacker was already heading outside, he turned around and shouted,"I don't do sharing."
Speed swore and ran after Hacker.
Even after knowing them for a while, I still didn't understand them.
I sighed and walked to the kitchen (not to slit my wrists),to get myself something to eat.
I opened the fridge and went through the options, Selena walked into the kitchen looking like she wanted to shout.
She opened the drawer with the knives in it, when she saw that they weren't there she sighed loudly.
"Where the hell are the knives?"she demanded.

"How should I know," I answered, closing the fridge and taking a bite of my apple.

She looked at my bandaged wrists then back at me,"Well you are the one using them them to slit your freaking wrists. So you should know."

"Don't, don't you dare," I warned her,"I do not have the energy for you right now."

"Gee! Maybe it's because you used all your energy to slit
your wrists," she shot back.

"You really sound like a damn broken record,"I said leaning against the fridge," And it's annoying me."

"Then stop using the knives for your sick amusement," she said.

"I wonder how the guys allowed you to join the gang," I said with a smirk on my face,"You are so full of yourself."

"Let's just say it pays off to have good connection," she said, then she put on this devious smile,"Plus being the former girlfriend of a really powerful guy or man has it's perks."

"Oh really? Who is this man?" I asked with disinterest.

"Tyson. Your Tyson," she said.

My apple went down the wrong pipe and I started choking.
Tyson?

"Are you okay?" she asked not looking concerned at all,"I thought you knew - oops my bad."

Oh hell no!
She and Tyson?
I guess that explains the seductive looks and smiles she had been giving him.
But he didn't return them of course...but why didn't he tell me?

"You and Tyson? As in Tyson Tyson?" I asked not believing what I was hearing,"Tyson?"

She sighed and rolled her eyes,"Yes. Gosh, are you deaf or what? I thought he told you, since you two are dating and all. Oh wait...I'm sure the reason he didn't tell you was because he knew you'd freak out because you'll never be good to him like I was good to him."

Ewe!!
This was not happening.
No no no no!
She and him dated?
How could I have been so blind!
Selena was beautiful and smart and down right bad ass.
How the hell was I going to compete with her.

"Not that you'd care, but I was Tyson's first girlfriend so that means he cares deeply about me. I'll always be his first."she said, clearly telling me that she was always going to be important to him."Our love for each other will never die and no girl will ever replace me."

I knew what she was trying to do, she wanted me to have a meltdown - it was working.
I closed my eyes and steadied my breathing.
I really needed that knife.

Is anyone else freaking out? CAUSE I AM. BIG TIME.
Selena has no filter, damn girl!
Poor Courts...#Selenabeach!
Dinela
Xoxo.