In Her World(Urban)

Do you ?

Today would be day 3 of momma and Keabran's hospitalization. I called my daddy and Jeremy to let them know what was going on. My daddy and I went to go visit my momma while Jeremy stayed with Keabran.

"You okay pooh?" My daddy asked calling me by my nick name as we walked down the hall going towards the elevators.

I sighed and rubbed my hands across my head. "Honestly , no I'm not. My brother is dead, my best friend is dead , my son is in the hospital, my momma is in the hospital. I still gotta go check on Lonzo. I don't know what to do honestly." I said being truthful.

We made it to the adult side of the hospital. He looked at me and said ,"You are only sixteen Korlin. You shouldn't be stressing out like this. For one thing you don't know what happened so you can't say it's your fault. Resi aint really your momma so that should let some stress off. Jalil is your cousin not your brother so calm down a little.And maybe its that strip club you work at stressing you out. I don't think you should work there anymore. Its them niggas getting to you at Strip."

What the fuck . Is he drunk , high or just fucking stupid? How In the hell can he say all this ? He show up when he has too not when he's needed.

"Biologically she is my great aunt , but mentally physically and emotionally she is my mother. My mother ain't there so she is. She raised me so that's my momma. And yeah, Jalil isn't my brother , he's my cousin biologically. Jalil has been there for me since I moved to Jackson. Jalil was my shoulder to cry on and my secret keeper other than Jasmine. And even though I don't know what happened I still feel responsible for it all. Me not knowing what the situation is makes me feel more guilty. And what I do to make a living has not shit to do with you. You only show up when u absolutely have too. You haven't really done anything for me but brag on me when I succeed.When I was smaller the only time you came to get me was on a holiday. So basically what I'm saying is ,when you live my life then you correct me." I looked at him one more time then I walked into my momma's room.

He followed behind shortly after.My momma's left arm was out of the cast and now in a sling.

"Hey Ko, how's man?"she said as I hugged her.

I shrugged a bit,"same as he was I guess. Nothing has changed. I wish I knew what exactly was going on in his mind."

"Have you talked to Jeremy?" She asked

"Yes ma'am, He's in the room with him now. He ain't taking it too well." I said looking everywhere but her eyes.

"Look at me pooh ,look at me," she said I finally looked at her." I know how your feeling. I just lost my son and I know your scared to loose yours. But if it is Gods plans the it can not be changed. You have to let all of this stuff out of your system too. You can't hold it all end and expect for your body to function properly. It ain't, so let it out. You are the breadwinner of our household. You made sure that we wanted for nothing and made sure every bill was paid for. You have done everything for us, but what have you done for yourself? Who has asked you how you feel ? Who's asked you did you need anything, huh?"

I thought about what she said," I'm good momma don't worry about that. You just worry about getting out of these shackles" I said referring to the bandages.

She shook her head and smiled ,"Stubborn girl, gone go back to my baby boy." I nodded

I hugged her and kissed her forehead and turned to leave. Only to see Kandré, my daddy , looking directly at me.

I eyed him for a minute then I went back to my son.

I walked in the room to see Jeremy on the phone.

"He still the same. Yes, I know. I'll keep you posted momma. Alright. Okay I love you too ." he said getting off the phone.

When he turned around he saw me holding Keabran's hand.