Give It All Up For Me

Breaking The Pain *Part One*

 "That is until he stopped trying. He stopped talking to me. He cut me off completely. H-h-he started getting a bit abusive." 

Blaine pulled up his sleeve to show multiple bruises and scars. Kurt gasped.

"I've been through been through worse, there's a lot more on my back, legs, etc. Anyway, he would always beat me constantly. I never told anyone because of a deal I made with him. The deal was if I never told anyone, we would keep Annie."

Kurt: Anine?

"She's m-my sister"

Kurt nodded. Blaine took a deep breath and started again.

"Okay, well you remember how I said that I stopped cutting?"

Kurt nodded slowly.

"Well... I started cutting again for awhile, I never told anyone, I would cut between my thighs so no one could see, and get worked up. It would usually hurt during gym class when we ran, sometimes it would bleed through. I just would hold it inside, it never showed though, the school's shorts were black, so you couldn't really see it. I never took a shower afterwards because I thought that the blood would show when I was showering, I would always just turn on the water, and stick my head under so people would think I took it. No one ever found out. No one knew I was suffering for years and still am. Everyone thought I was cool, that I had the perfect life, rich, handsome, charming, intelligent, the badass, everyone thought I could get any girl I ever wanted. Part of it's probably true."

He chuckled softly at that part.

"But there's nothing perfect about me, I'm just a fucked up person. I cut myself, I'm mean, rude, I'm even mean to my friends, I don't know why I love them so much, they're probably the best thing that has ever happened to me."

Blaine thought something that made him smile. "Right next to meeting you.."

"I don't listen, I'm nothing but trouble. I'm worthless. I can't do anything right. I act like I'm all that, but I'm not. It's just a disguise. It's a wall I used to protect myself. I never told anyone this, I didn't want anyone to know. To know that I had weaknesses. I didn't want a repeat of what happened at my old school. All I ever wanted was to be perfect for my dad, that's all I ever wanted. Why can't he be proud of me? Why? What's wrong with me? Oh, wait lots of things. Fucking everything's wrong with me! No wonder, he hates me. Why can't I be normal? Why can't I be perfect? Why did I have to be a disappointment? What did I do to deserve this?"

Blaine's voice cracked at the word "deserve". He let loose all the tears he had been holding in. He sobbed into the pillow.