The Real Me [H.S]

32.

PLEASE READ A/N AT THE END

ENJOY

______________________________________________________

HARRY

We'd only been walking for about five minutes and neither of us had spoken and the silence was awkward.

"Well this is awkward" I chuckled lightly, hoping it to come out as a joke and all be ok.

"Yea and who made it this way" Mia scoffed and I rolled my eyes at her.

"It wasn't just all me you know, it takes two to tango" I stated.

"Yea but you started it" She muttered and I sighed.

"Are we really going to agrue about this?"

"Why shouldn't we?" By this time Mia had stopped walking and was now facing me. "We argued and ignored each other when I kissed you, so why not when you do it? Or is it different if you do it?" She said through gritted teeth, I could tell she was mad and she was starting to make me mad too.

"Sorry that I thought this time we could talk about it like adults and actually get through it without arguing!" I said throwing my hands up.

"Fine, you want to talk about it? Lets talk." Mia said and I stared at her as she stood in front of me with her arms crossed over her chest.

"Thank you, right." I took a deep breathe in and started to think about where I could start this.

I don't want to mess up again.

"Go on then?" Mia said with raised eyebrows as I was silent for a couple of minutes,

"I just don't know where to start" I said and she rolled her eyes at me and started to walk away. "WAIT!" I shouted and ran after her, grabbing her arm which made her stop and turn round towards me again.

"What?"

"Just please, give me a minute to explain myself" I asked and she was quiet for a couple of minutes that I thought she wouldn't listen to me.

"Go on then" I sighed in relief.

"Right, to start of with I don't know why I kissed you, it was in the moment kind of thing..."

MIA

I hated this. He kissed me. That has to mean something right. That maybe he likes me more then Lucy. Then we can get rid of Lucy altogether. Not that, that would work so well. I mean maybe Kim has got into my head about how me and Harry suit better then him and Lucy. Maybe all this is wrong and Lucy and Mia should both disappear from his life. I don't know why I want Harry to explain himself. Maybe because I'm confused and need to know what his feeling. I feel bad, yes. I feel bad that I know Lucy and Mia are the same person but he doesn't. I feel bad for making him all confused and having all these problems, thinking its two different people. Thinking his hurting one of them when really his not.

"Right, to start of with I don't know why I kissed you, it was in the moment kind of thing I guess..." He trailed off looking me in the eyes as started to explain himself.

I don't know why but hearing tat first sentence broke me already and I knew I wouldn't be able to hear the rest without hurting.

"...I mean it was romantic and shit and we were talking about views and I don't know, we were looking at each other and I don't know exactly but it seemed like the right thing to do at the time. It seemed like the thing to do when you're in them situations but obviously that's when you are with your girlfriend or on a date, not with a friend. It wasn't until after I realised how wrong it was. I shouldn't have done it. I mean I practically lead you on by doing that and I don't want to do that to you. You don't deserve that. I'm with Lucy Parker for fucks sake. What more could I want, right?" As he spoke he wasn't really looking at me. He was walking around in front of me on the pavement. He looked like he was ranting about his life to me. Like I could give him some advice about what to do. Like I was a therapist. But I don't think he realised what he was saying was hurting me.