The Real Me [H.S]

20.

MIA

-Can I meet you today? xx H-

-Sure xx L-

That probably would've been the best text to get after what happened with Harry yesterday, but Unfortunely it wasn't to me, it was to Lucy.

"Mum, I'm meeting Harry as Lucy just so you know!" I called as I walked down the stairs with my brown wig on top of my natural blonde hair.

"Okay hun, have fun!" She called back from the kitchen as I walked out of the door into the car that was waiting for me.

I gave the driver the address of Harry's flat where I was meeting him before facing out of the window.

In some way I wish Harry had texted me today, even if it was Lucy. I'm not in the mood to see anyone, all I wanted to do was lay in bed and sulk about yesterday but of course I cant do that. I know I have to act all happy and ok with Harry as I'm Lucy not Mia. However I don't understand why all of a sudden he wants to meet me. I know we're meant to be 'going out' now. Even though he hasn't exactly asked me officially. I guess I better get use to being happy and ok as Lucy and Harry and forget about Mia and Harry ever being anything again.

"We're here ma'am." The driver called as I snapped out of my thoughts and noticed we had stopped.

"Oh, thank you, I'll call if I need picking up" I said as politely as I could as I got out the car.

I walked up to Harry's door and started the fake smile as I got closer, trying to make sure this act looks real, I must not look sad.

"Hey Luc, come in" He said as he opened the door, holding it open for me.

"Hey Harry, so what's with the sudden wanting to hang out?" I smiled at him as we sat in his living room. "Not that I don't like it" I stumbled the last sentence out of my mouth and he chuckled at me before taking my hand in his.

"I just want to tell you something"

Oh shit. This is serious. His not smiling or anything. Oh god, what if he knows?!

"What is it?" I choked out, scared.

"Yesterday I met up with my friend Mia, you know the one who was ill of out concert..." He word vomited, I nodded not knowing what else to do. I mean I have a feeling I already know what his about to tell Lucy but I have to act shocked or like I wasn't there yesterday. "...Well we went back to her house as she wanted to tell me something private and serious about her life. Anyway, she was crying and I was hugging her and the next thing, she kissed me. Yes I kissed back but only for a second before I realised what was happening, and I know that's not an excuse but I need you to know I don't like her. Not like that. She's not you. You are amazing to me and she's nothing compared to you. I just wanted you to know because I want you to be my girlfriend but for that to happen there needs to be trust right? So I'm telling you this so you know. But I really like you Lucy. I want you, not her." As he finished his little speech I had silent tears streaming down my face for more than one reason.

One reason because he wants me to be his girlfriend, Harry Styles actually wants ME, Lucy anyway, he wants ME. Another reason is because he wants trust and his given me all his trust by telling me this and not ignoring it but I feel bad because I cant seem to trust him enough to tell him my deepest secret about being Mia and Lucy. I cant tell him. Especially not now, not after his told me this and thinks we are two different people. The final reason I am crying is because of all the nice things he said about Lucy but also about the things he said about Mia. I always knew no one would want me if I was Mia and would prefer Lucy, but I've never had anyone actually say it to me, until now. And for some reason, even thought I knew it, it still hurt Mia's heart, my heart.

"Babe, why are you crying?" Harry's smooth voice called me out of my thoughts and it wasn't until now I noticed his hugging me.

Come on Lucy, act like this is shocking news but act like anyone else who isn't two people would act. Come on you can do this.

"I just thought you liked me enough to not kiss another girl.." I choked out, hopefully saying what any of girl would say.

"No, no, no. Lucy don't think like that. Of course I like you. I like you so much. Please, just give us a try, say yes to being my girlfriend. Please?" Harry begged and I put his head in my hands so we were now looking at each other in the eyes.

"You promise me this wont happen again and you'll tell me the trust about anything, me doing the same of course" I suggested and he nodded.

"Of course, love"

After them words come out of his mouth I kissed him, hard.

"Yes, I'll be your girlfriend" I smiled as we pulled away and I've never seen someone smile so bright before.

He looked so happy as he lifted me into his arms and kissed me more. As much as I was happy as him, Mia was still hurt and sad.

My life is starting to become a mess.