Where The Sun Meets The Skyline

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What does this mean
Sitting across the open fire
Catching glances and daydreaming
Catching bits of conversation here and there
Constantly crossing the line between wishing and yearning
What does it mean
When I look at you while you have a grin on your face and a glint in your eye
And all I can do is wish it was because of me
Or when I catch your eye and you look away quickly, as if it didn't happen
The people who spread out around the warm flames have the wrong idea
Thinking it's more than it is just because we share a single similarly
Or trying to push us into something that isn't right
Because all I really want to do is be alone with you
But not because I'm in love with you or because they want us to be
Just because it would be more peaceful than the constant chatter surrounding us
And so we could finally peel back all the layers and talk
And I don't mean that meaningless small talk
But instead, about us
Where we stand
What's real and what's not
Revealing all the true colors
Something we should have done a long time ago
And I understand if I'm sending you the wrong message
My outbursts every now and then that result from a lack of participation in the conversation
My well hidden nerves that cause my occasional poorly thought out actions or words
Leading to a lot of regret
I'm a lot to handle, I know
But I promise you that's not all that's there
It's just the version of myself that the most pronounced when I'm around you
But there's a lot more than meets the eye
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** Hi! So I haven't posted in about a decade I know and it breaks my heart a little. I've just been in a slump, I guess and I've had plenty to keep me busy (basically everything else except writing). But I'd like to change that so for now on I vow to update at least every other week if not more. I doubt anyone even reads this still but that's okay. If it's not for you it's for me and I won't stop writing regardless. Okay now about this one: it's really out of my comfort zone to post this but you know if I'm not being real, then what's the point of this? Okay so that's all. Hopefully I'll see you soon!
- just_an_echo21