Clueless

Chapter Twenty-Three.

*Jermanie POV*
This was the first time in a long time I've slept in my own house. I looked at the bag of cocaine as it was the first thing I open my eyes to. I shook my head as I slowly gotten up, realizing that I was going to meet up with my mom today.
I rolled myself a blunt with my stash hidden inside my drawer, and once lighted I let my mind wonder.
This is the first night I didn't spend with Joy. I don't understand why I'm so attached to her. I feel really incomplete without having her next to me making me smile. Talking about whatever came to mind.
Letting the high take a hold of me, I looked at the picture of me and Joy smiling together. I couldn't do anything but blame myself for what happened to her. If I would've just stayed here for her or brought her with me, she'd be here right now, complaining about how she was hungry, or completing her school work or something.
This guilty conscious I have is causing the increase of my drug use. Joy was really the only person that knew about my problem, along with my sister. I'm afraid that Faith would leave me if I told her, and after Joy went into a coma, I couldn't help but turn to drugs. Nobody understands how alone I felt until I met Joy.
I mean sure, Faith is really everything to me, that's the love of my life. She's a beautiful woman, and I can see myself marrying and settling down with her one day. But when I really sit down and think about the time I met both Joy and Faith...
I think that Joy somehow... in some fucked up way, is my soulmate.
I don't know how or why I feel this way but it's here. The feeling is there. I have this love that I can't explain for Joy, no matter how much I want to deny it.
Now high, I went down the stairs towards my fridge to get my half of hero. It's really my favorite thing to eat. As I was heading upstairs, my house phone began to ring.
"Hello?" I asked and I took a bite out of the sandwich.
"Boy are you even next to your cellphone? " my mother asked as I rolled my eyes heading upstairs.
"Obviously not mom, I just moved away from my phone to get something to eat" I said as I got back to my room only to see 3 missed calls from my mom and 2 missed calls from Faith.
Wasn't even gone for that long for my hotline to be blinging 😑
"Listen, don't swing that cranky ass attitude my way, okay? I just wanted you to know that I'll be at your house at 3 to pick you up" she said as I looked at the clock that read 11:20AM.
"Yes ma'am" I picked up my dub and began to roll another blunt. I really didn't know what my mother had to tell me. It could've been anything.
I just want to know how she knew Joy, does that really have to be a conversation outside of my house? Where was she taking me?
"Alright then, I-I'll see you soon. Love you" my mom said.
"Yeah, love you too mom. Bye" we hung up and I continued to smoke.
This is going to be a long day.

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I fell asleep, and woke back up at 1. I showered and got dress and waited for my mom.
"Hi, I would like to pay a phone bill... Joy Springs... why ya need a birthday? It's a bill not a damn prescription... 236-578-2890...if I didn't know how much it was would I be calling?" I conversed with the dumb ass on the other side of the phone, trying to pay for Joy's bills. Paid for her condo rent, phone bills electric bill, hell even her damn Netflix.
"Okay that's all? ... thanks have a great day" I put down from that stupid ass person as I grabbed a sandwich from my fridge as I continue to wait on my mom.
I've been taking care of things along with Faith and Delano in the house for her. Faith buys new groceries, Delano cleans everything, just helping keeping everything together for our friend.
...Soulmate
My phone rang as the thought left as quickly as it came.
"Hey baby I might be a little early picking you up if that's okay."
"Yeah I'm just here waiting for you, how long will you be?"
"About 20 minutes? I'm on the road now"
"Yeah okay I'm ready" I bit into my sandwich.
"Okay, love you!"
"Love you" we hung up and I continued my wait...

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I got in the car 30 minutes later (since my mom wanted to do a pit stop to get some food). We drove off and only music filled the car as there was a peaceful and comfortable silence between my mom and I.
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