Promises (Beau Brooks/Janoskians fanfic)

Chapter 15

Egh, I feel so horrible. The others walked in with confused looks.

"We left hoping you guys would start dating not find someone leaving with a pissed off look...what happened??" Camilla said, I made a death glare.

"I don't want to talk about it, I'm going to go get ready I'll be back downstairs in a minute." I said,then ran upstairs, I ran into my room,and shut the door. I looked through my window and I knew Beau was there because his window was opened. I opened my and yelled "Beau Beau I know your there,please talk to me...I'm sorry,"

I saw him get up, looked at me straight in the eye,shut the window and closed the drapes. Fuck!!!!!!!!

Tear fell, my life can't go 2 days without a fight. I went into the bathroom,and started the shower. I looked at myself in mirror,thinking about cutting, I kept saying to myself no.

'Dont you even try Mia. Don't just dont do it. Just think about how upset they all are going to be,'

'Do it!it will make you feel better,feeling other pain. Do it, people will always hate you Mia, I mean just look at beau he won't even talk to you because you made a mistake saying those things. He hates you, I bet ya he won't talk to you anymore.'

'Mia,don't you dare. That's not true, beau loves you'

'No he doesn't,the look on his face when he heard what you said,that's the face of hatred.'

'Mia, don't listen to that..Beau loves you..let me repeat it, HE LOVES YOU! He loves you so much Mia, just think how upset beau will be when he finds out you did this'

'He won't find out,and plus he won't give a shit. Seriously he won't care. Who would care about you, Mia face it your a mistake who make mistakes. '

I held the razor in my hand which was shaking. I placed it down, I couldn't do it, I'm stronger now. I stripped out of my clothes and hopped into the warm water. Eminem playing through the speakers, I rapped along.

'I'm a space bound rocket ship and your heart's the moon
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
Two hundred fifty thousand miles on a clear night in June
And I'm aiming right at you
Right at you
Right at you '~eminem.
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THE NEXT DAY...

MIA'S POV:

AT LUNCH.

I walked down to lunch all happy, it's was funny to see everyone's faces when i started talking. Beau hasn't talked to me all day I know its only been a day,but it just doesn't feel right. When I got to the table, my friends all stopped talking,and beau just glared at me, mostly what his face was telling me to go away. I knew I was unwanted,so I frowned then walked to the other table far away from them. Once I sat down my phone beeped.

Camilla- EY why aren't you sitting here??

Me- I'm unwanted...

Camilla-what is going on between you and Beau??

Me-nothing.

Camilla-come on, seriously all of us really should know. You both are our friends and plus you and beau are close. You guys finally had each other THEN BANG! You two aren't friends again. Why can't you tell me.

Me-cuz its just between me and beau.

Camilla- you confuse me, you really do.

Me- it's one of my talents,other than making mistakes all the time.