Promises (Beau Brooks/Janoskians fanfic)

Chapter 45

A COUPLE MONTHS LATER………

Everything soon went down hill, it was October and I was getting very irritated with everyone, mostly jai, Camilla, James, Daniel, Ashton, BEAU, and Luke. They always asked if I remember anything for the past months, I didn't have any space to even think. I barely hanging on to my hope by a thread, tonight really got to beau that’s for sure.

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THAT NIGHT…

"So mia, did you get any memories?" Camilla asked, when we all sat down in the living room, I knew I had to snap, so I did.

"Can we just for once not talk about if I've got my memory back please! Every single day its mia do you remember anything? Mia, keep trying hard….well I am, but you guys aren't helping if I can't think!" I snapped.

"Maybe because we are losing hope too! We care too much about you and maybe we really want you to remember!" Beau snapped.

"Yeah so everything could go back to normal, but what if I don't want to remember, I don't know what happened during the summer but I don't want to remember anything sad!" I yelled back.

"There you go, its always about you, what about us mia! What about what we want huh?! Stop thinking about yourself and think about all of us, we were all your friends and you don't remember ( I started to cry) anything of the boys and I, its like you don't want to remember us!" Beau yelled at me.

"Beau stop." Ashton said, and sat next to me for comfort.

"None of you guys see it. Mia, your giving up, you don't want to try anymore."

"YES I DO! YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I FEEL!" I yelled at him.

"I don't know what you were in my life, BUT DUDE RELAX FOR GOSH SAKES I NEED SPACE. WHAT HAPPENS If I  NEVER GET IT  BACK, THEN WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO!?"  I added.

"DON'T YOU EVEN DARE TO THINK THAT WAY, YOU’RE THE ONE WHO LOSING THE MOST HOPE THEN ALL OF US. I'M NOT GOING TO LOSE THE PERSON I LOVE, I LOST HER AND I'M NOT LOSING HER AGAIN."

"WELL I'M SORRY THAT MAYBE SHE'S GONE.AND I MAY BE ALL YOU GET! I'M NOT LOSING HOPE BEAU, MAYBE YOU’RE THE REASON WHY I'M STARTING TO," I snapped.

"I don't know who you are anymore, your definitely not the mia we all knew before the accident, that mia would have never thought about giving up. I don't know you anymore, you know what don't try. Just live on with your life, because the more you give up the more my heart is breaking. Because you are everything to me, I mean everything, and you saying that you may not want to remember me or any of us…hurts me more. Mostly all I can do is just remember the mia I know, and not hope that she may come back! I hurt you before the accident and I didn't mean to, I now didn't mean to yell at you or hurt now. So I guess I'm always going to hurt you, so I should just leave, I think that will do everyone a favor. "  He said then got up and left. The sad thing about it was he was crying the amount of tears as I was.

But this caused a chain reaction, little by little the boys got up and just pissed or upset with me as they left . The last person was a surprise to me, it was Camilla.

"Your leaving me to Camilla?" I cried.

"Beau is right I don't know if you just don't want to remember them, those boys meant everything to you. This is your choice not mine, and I making the choice. I'm sorry but I think beau is right your giving up the most then all of us."

"But your my best friend,"

She didn't answer then she walked out shutting the door quietly. I cried into Ashton, soon max came out asking what happened and he hugged with us. I cried probably for hours.

 Joey and Isabelle finally walked in, and dropped their bags of food when they noticed me crying and Max

& Ashton crying as well.

"What the hell happened?" Joey asked, I took a deep breath.

"I was yelled at by beau, and then everyone thought I was giving up, when really I was irritated from everyone asking the same question over and over again. So one by one they left, including Camilla. I can't take this pressure anymore Joey, I can't handle all this pressure when I know I'm making people upset. Hurting them mostly. " I explained.

"I'm done joey, I seriously am under so much stress that I can't even think sometimes. I don't know what to do but I just can't be here." I told, getting stressed.

"well I'm leaving soon for California tomorrow and I know you can get tickets, if you want to come. Plus your parents are there and they really want to see you." Max explained.

"Wait my parents are in California?" I asked, shocked yet happy.

"Joey you never told her?!" Max said looking at Joey with a pissed off look.

"I was waiting for the right time to tell her." He answered.

"Mia, that’s where your parents been for the 3 years. Then went to Rehab for you, they didn't want to bring you because they thought they would hurt you more or something. I talked to them when I moved and they are very changed people, and sober." Max explained.

"Ok, any way what time are we leaving?" I asked, their eyes widened.

"Your not even going to think about it? I mean seriously Mia, I think you should really think about it." Joey then told nervously.

"Why should I, I don't have anything left in Australia, except you and Isabelle. That’s it. I want to get away from drama and the pressure, and maybe that will help me get my memory back, plus I really want to see mom and dad and get explanation, I deserve one.." I told.

"I guess you better start packing. " He told me.

"Me too, because I still want to hang out with my best friend, if you want me too." Ashton said, I quickly nodded.

"Of course." I told, then I got up.

"Ok its settled we're leaving for California tomorrow," Max said.

Soon in the morning I was going to leave the place that  had lots of memories.