Promises (Beau Brooks/Janoskians fanfic)

Chapter 41

BEAU'S POV:

Its done, I ruined everything.  I walked back in and grabbed my coat, everyone was all confused.

"Beau where are you going? Are you ok bro?" Jai asked, everyone looked worried.

"Lets just say what's done is done. I'm going home to just lay down for bit. Tell mia….Happy birthday," I said, and handed max her present, then walked out. 

I walked into the house, and slowly made my way upstairs. When I got to my room, I sat down on my bed,and just looked around my room. Memories of mia and I flashing through my head, making me cry. I closed my curtains and I turned over on my bed ,then cried into my pillow, I tried my best and she told me she doesn't love me. I hurt her that's all there is to it.

I heard a faded knock and someone saying " Beau."

I turned around, sat up and saw noticed it  was my mom ,she made a weak smile and sat down next to me. She wrapped her arms around me and hugged me, she always knew  when I need that and comfort.

"I know you love her so much." she said, and I let go and looked at her.

"More than you ever think. " I mumbled.

"Do you want to talk about it?" She asked.

"Mom I tried, I tried everything. I told everything from my heart, I cried my heart out, because what I was saying was the truth, I told her that I loved her, and how I cared so much about her. Mom I'm such a bad person, I am." I said, she shook head.

"Beau peter  brooks you are not a bad person, there worse people in the world and they are in jail. Your not bad, you made a little mistake."

"Little, how is it little when I just lost someone, yeah that little!"

"I hurt the one girl that meant so much to me. She made me really happy ,when we weren't fighting. The way she told me that we aren't getting back together, you could hear the pain in her voice. My heart skipped a beat when she told me it was over…and she said goodbye. SHE SAID GOODBYE!"

"What's wrong with goodbye?"

"Mia told me she never believed in goodbyes, because goodbyes mean forever and when she said goodbye before she commited , she never died. SO she says goodnight never goodbye, so mostly she said goodbye beau forever." I explained.

"I don't think she knew what she was saying. I don't think she meant forev-----"

"Yes she did, I know she meant it or else she would have never said it. She knew that she told me  before what goodbyes meant to her, so she told me that knowing that I would know what it would mean, and that she doesn't want to get back together ever."  I explained.

"Beau----"

"Mom just leave please, your seriously not helping what so ever." I snapped, I heard her gasped, and she frowned.

"Ok, um I'll just leave you alone." She told I could hear that she was a little hurt ,as she left. I groaned.