Promises (Beau Brooks/Janoskians fanfic)

Chapter 16

3 days later...

Lets just Camilla's thought about when it was going to end wasn't the right number. It's been three days and so far it feels worse. I feel broken not the inside, like my life isn't complete with beau. He's all I ever think about,and sadly I don't think it'll stop. Everyday so far it's been getting more awkward,and sad, I sometimes wonder if Beau feels sad. Feels what I'm feeling, my heart keeps telling me to just walk up to him and just talk to him even if he won't answer,but I'm to scared and my brain says the opposite. Egh why is life so hard, too many choices!!!!

I was now walking home on a Thursday afternoon, its really cloudy out but it said no rain so I guess that's good. As I walked I noticed a dark shadow in front of me...it was beau.

Before I could even think, my mouth spoke,"Beau! Beau! Wait up!"

He didn't reply,but I knew something that would,"BEW BROOKS, WAIT UP!!!"

He then stop,"oh my god thats not my name!" He then turned a around and groaned when he saw me. Before he could even leave I had already got to him.

"Beau can we please talk?" I said, he shook his head.

"Yeah sure," he said in a rude way , ok um I didn't know I would get this far.

"Exactly,go on Mia. Say what you need to say, your chance is finally here. You have my attention, so go right ahead like that your sorry,that you didn't mean to do the things that you said, how you love me now." He snapped at me.

"Yes, and I'm really sorry Beau. I-I had no intention of hurting you, really. Cou-----"

"Do you know how much pain you caused me!? It hurt Mia, it hurt me a lot and for you to just say sorry and you had no intention..then what was your fucking intention huh!? What was your intention other than hurting me!"

"I-I didn't know that it was going to hurt you------" I stuttered but got interrupted.

"Than if it wasn't going to hurt me than what was!"

"I wasn't trying to hurt you," I said quietly and a tear fell.

"I don't want want to lose what we had," I added.

"What did we have Mia, we had a good friendship but what do we have now ...nothing."

" i didnt mean to hurt you really i wouldnt do that on purpose." I said tears falling out.

"Then why did you do it Mia!" Beau yelled.

"It's just slipped out of my mouth,"

"Then you should think before you speak Mia. Because words do hurt people, especially people that love you," he said in a sad tone.

My heart skipped a beat," what do you want me to say?! Because everything I say doesn't seem to matter!"

"That's your problem Mia, you always think no cares about you say,or if it even matters," Beau yelled at me.

"You know why because I had to think that through all my years. I WAS EVEN TOLD THAT!!!" I yelled back, tears falling out.

"Well maybe you should stop thinking that Mia, because some of the things you hold on to cause trouble ." Beau said back.

"You have no right to say that to me beau! That was uncalled for because the things I have been through,are things that has cause so much drama for the past years!"

"Then let go,maybe you'll be less uncomfortable!because the more you hold a grudge to, the more people you push away etc."

"Beau you'll never understand!" I yelled, this getting to personal.