Falling For You *Love at Last Sight*

Back to H-ll, Well Maybe?

Chapter 28

~Back to H-ll, well Maybe?

  The rest of our date when by perfectly. We laughed and talked. And it was wonderful. It almost seemed like my attempted suicide never happened and that this was all that mattered.

The even better part, Kyle asked me to be his girlfriend. Which I agreed to in less than a heart beat. I loved Kyle with all my heart and soul. I was so happy that all of this sh-t happened, because if it hadn't, I wouldn't be having this moment with Kyle right now.

The whole night was like a dream come true. Coming home, even was different. My father was becoming like a real father. and I liked it. It was nice seeing the side of my father that had been lost after the death of most of our family.

I went to bed early that night, as the next day was my first day back for a while.

I was awaken by the annoying ringing of my alarm clock. Groaning, I got up and walked to the bathroom. Still in a sleepy haze, I stripped and got into the shower. The water started to wake me up.

After about ten minutes, I got out and went back into my room. I had pulled on my undergarments, and started looking for what to wear. I pulled on a pair of blue skinny jeans and a pretty blue shirt.  Then, I ran back to the bathroom and put my hair, in what I called, princess style, (Two braids from the front, tied together in the back, looking like a crown on your head) and brushed my teeth. Taking one last look, I smiled and ran out the door, holding my bag in my hands.

I had ran the whole way to the school, not caring that I still had over half an hour before it even started. I was in such a good mood, that it was almost scary, but I ignored that thought.

When I reached the school, I quickly made my way to first hour.  English went by quickly. I didn't know if it was just my mood that helped, or that we were having a discussion on plays by William Shakespeare.

The rest of my morning classes went by just as quickly as first hour had gone. Though, I barely remember any of it. Also, no one said anything, negatively, to me. Only a few people actually said anything to me.

I was so happy when break came, as I got to see Kyle.

I made my way to my willow tree, I thought about the song I had started writing. I had only a little bit done, but maybe Kyle could help me finish it?

Sitting under the tree, I stared into the sky. Soon, sadly, I was pulled from my thoughts. I looked to see Ashlynn staring at me.

"What do you want, Ashlynn?" I asked, slightly irritated.

"Why do you assume I want something? I'm not the needy b*tch here," she smirked.

I looked at her, my eyes wide.

"Oh, yes, I know about your little suicide attempt. Just looking for attention. You are such a needy little b*tch, why couldn't you have just succeeded?" she said, with a smirk upon her barbie doll face.

"Do you even understand what it's like?" I asked.

"What what's like?" she asked, confused.

"Living life, thinking that you don't deserve it, that you are worthless and a waste of space. Thinking maybe I should just cut deeper, or starve longer, maybe that could end the pain. But when that doesn't help, do it longer and longer till suddenly you can't do it anymore. You can't cut deeper, or starve longer, you're just can't. Why? Because you. Are. Dead! Do you even know what that feels like?! To be so alone? So helpless? So lost? Confused? Beaten?" I yelled.

She just stared at me.

"You don't! You never could understand! All you did was cause this to me! You caused me to want to end my life, to want to starve myself, and to cut. All because you and your comments, saying that I'm worthless and stupid and ugly, not skinny enough, or pretty enough. You don't understand what it's like to hurt so badly! So, why do you try so hard to make my life a living h-ll?" I yelled, coming down to a whisper at the end.

Ashlynn stared at me, her eyes were wide. She seemed to be lost for words at my little scene. But I didn't care, she needed to know what she was doing to me. And I couldn't hold it in any longer.

"I'm sorry."

I looked at Ashlynn, it was my turn to be shocked. She had just apologized to me. Ashlynn actually said I'm sorry. Saying I was shocked was an understatement.

"I'm sorry, Kaelyn, I'm sorry I did this too you. I know I was a b*tch to you, and that I caused you so much pain, but I'm sorry. Could you ever forgive me?" she said, softly.

I could her her sincerity in her voice. I knew she meant what she said, but could I forgive her for all that she has done to me? I sighed. I knew what I had to do.

"I forgive you."

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The End

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