Falling For You *Love at Last Sight*

Every Rose has It's Thorns

Chapter 14

~Every Rose has It's Thorns

Sadness was everywhere, but when he looked at me, I saw a spark of something I didn't know.

Every rose has it's thorns. Everyone is always trying to be careful of the thorns, because the thorns will hurt you, but sometimes you have to rid yourself of the carefulness and just take the risk of getting stabbed by the thorns. No one seems realize that, sometimes, it takes a little blood and hard work to get the full beauty. 

To be honest, everyone has heard the saying "Every Rose has it's Thorn" but does anybody really know what it means? It is almost like saying "Every love has it's bumps", "Every beauty has it's Problems". There is no true meaning to it, but there are so many comparisons. You can compare the saying to so many different things, but you can't ever get one actual meaning of it. But honestly, that's what makes it better. Because if there is no actual meaning to it, then others can make their own meaning up. Two people never come up with the same meaning. 

Love is very complicated. Whether it's going good between the two now, or if it's going bad between them. There are always moments in each love, or relationship, where it's going good and where it's going bad. But people only put up with it because love is something that people want, and to have it, you have to try for it. That's one thing people tend to forget. You have to fight for love. It doesn't come to you on a silver platter. But when you do receive it, it can be one of the most wonderful things in the world.

All day, I sat at home, since we had the rest of the week off, and looked for cute love quotes and stories on my laptop. Yesterday, when I saw the spark of something in his eyes, I think I knew what it was now. I think it was love.

When he was talking about his sister, and how he had been so very protective of her, and watching her as she died. Then when I became closer to him. When I wiped away his tears. I think I understand this all a little bit better now. Maybe.

I have always loved the idea of finding the perfect love, and living happily ever after. I always wanted that one guy who would make me feel so special and loved. I always did dream too much, getting my hopes set too high.

How many girls have wanted something like this:

 I asked you if I was pretty, you said no. I asked you if you wanted to be with me forever, you said no. I asked you if you would cry if I walked away, you said no. I had heard too much and need to leave and as I walked away... You grabbed my arm and told me to stay. You said... You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. And baby, I wouldn't cry if you walked away... I would die.

Girls always seem to love the idea of the cheesy romance scenes. And it's always really cute when a boy says something really romantic, even if it's something really cheesy.

But ended up like this:

When you told me that I'm special to you... my heart enlightened... I've been always thinking of you... But when I saw you with her, I was deeply hurt. Then I've realized... special is much different from love...

With tears in their eyes and a broken-heart?

Love is worth the risk, but it's who the risk is for that you have to think of. I don't know if Kyle is the one who is worth the risk, or if he is just another boy who will break my heart. Kaylee had said he was my true love, but I still don't know if I believed her. After seeing, what I thought, was love in his eyes, I think Kaylee could have been telling the truth about him being my true love. But he still hasn't proven it to me.

I thought back to everything Kyle had done for me. He sang me "I won't let go", he made me feel loved and special, he wrote "Distance" and performed it for me. But he has also ignored me until now, and he lied to me and called me names that I'd rather not hear. Kyle has done two acts to prove he loves me, but if he really is the one, then he will do something else to also make me feel loved. But what will he do? After he's done all this?

But Kaylee told me Kyle was my true love. When I had planned to commit suicide, he noticed me and tried to stop me, but I ended up falling, both of the bridge and in love with him. But how could I love him, when I didn't even ever really know him?