My Depressive Mind

Now a Stranger

I am in love with the person you once were
But it breaks my heart to say that I no longer know you
You are not the person I met in second grade
That smile of yours is gone
Your eyes no longer light up like they used to
When you moved away I was crushed...
devastated...
Everything hurt
I was like that for years
For MONTHS after you left I cried myself to sleep every damn night
I'd have dreams of you coming back and I'd wake up and for a few seconds I'd be so happy
Then it would hit me all over again
You were gone and you were never coming back
For three years I believed that
I believed that I'd never again see your dorky grin
Never hear your voice calling out my name...
But then I found you.
That day was the happiest of my life
We talked all night
For a few weeks everything was amazing
But then slowly you started slipping away
Not answering for days...
Then weeks...
Then finally, a month passed with no word from you
When you finally responded you wouldn't even say why you were gone
Everything went downhill from there
It was almost certain that if I messaged you it wouldn't get answered for days, maybe weeks
You said you loved me,
so what happened?
All I ever did was reach out to you and all you ever did was push me away
My questions were met with anger...
My hellos with silence
I'm going to miss you old friend
I will remember you as the amazing person you once were rather than the bitter one you are now
All that time...
Was it a waste to miss you?
It doesn't matter,
I always will
The person you used to be anyway
The person I loved...
Goodbye stranger...