Now That I'm Gone

Chapter 4

I awoke in the middle of the night and stared at my mom blankly.

She's so beautiful...

I held on to my mom's hand and sat there in silence. For hours. I don't think I have ever been that scared in my life. I kept thinking, what if I lose her..

Don't think about it... Everything will be fine.. perfectly fine..

I kissed her hand. I cried. I sat there. I thought. Why did I always have to think..? I could think about the good things for once. Like my mom surviving and us all living a happy life. But no, my brain liked to think about the bad things. My mom dying. There is no saying what we would do, or what would happen if she died. Why did that stupid car hit her? When I first came to the hospital I was too in shock to ask any of the details. But after a while, before my dad went home, he told me what had happened. Her and Dad were out and about and they had gotten into a fight. Mom, having an attitude when she gets mad, refused to keep the argument going. My mom and dad share a car so they had to ride home together. Once they were in the car it started up again. So my mom decided to walk home. Again I repeat walk. By herself. My dad drove by her slowly trying to convince her to get in the car. She didn't listen. He kept trying, but knowing my mother she kept refusing. He sat in a parking lot and waited. Waited for her to come back into his loving arms and go home. She kept walking not turning back. She was walking across the street when a car had ran a red light and hit her. We were lucky she wasn't hit head on. If it did then it would have killed her instantly. It did cause a lot of damage though... I don't know exactly what it did, but it was hurting my mom.. and my family.

Flashback
My mom walks into my room and I'm just sitting there in silence.. she sits on my bed.

"Hey what's the matter?"

"Nothing.." I say

"Then where is your smile?"

"I don't know"

"Can you find it please..? It looks good on you sweetheart."

"I'm saving it for a rainy day mom.. I'll be fine."

"Okay sweety diner in five.."

"Okay"

Reality
I looked out the window.. it was raining.. I sat in silence. I loved the sound of rain. I just sat and thought to myself. And then I smiled. Using the smile I once saved for a rainy day.

A/N___________xoxoxo

Hellooo readers! I'm very sorry I haven't updated for a long time and it's such a short chapter, but I will make up for it I promise!!! I've just been kind of busy lately.. anyways the next chapter will be great! Love

Like always peace and love

-Pretty_Lil_Psycho_xo