Social Suicide

Loneliness

A/N

(Uh-oh, another one of these)

I'd just like to thank everyone who has stuck with me this far. From my untidy grammar to my random uploading, i'd just like to take the time and thank you for sticking with this story.

It is again exam season so, I'm sorry for the out-of-schedule uploads. 

Love you all munchkins xxx

I needed to know where April was, so i was keeping in contact with her and Derek through payphone. I knew that if i had used my own phone, my dad would just track everything which i was guessing was how he found me in the first place.

The first time i called, April was furious.

"What the hell is your problem Rob? You couldn't have come with me? Now i'm stuck-- God knows where-- with Derek. I know that you don't want me to be a part of any of this but i'm your girlfirend and guess what, you're stuck with me. I don't care if you've got a psychotic father, you're stuck with me and i'd like to be stuck with you," she shouted.

Holding the phone about a meter away from ear, i laughed.

"I miss you too, babe." I replied with a sad smile.

"I know you did what you had to do, but Rob. How long is this going to go on for? I have a life, i have friends and i need to complete my school work."

"I want to bring you back, but i can't. I just-- give me some time to figure this out, okay?" 

"Can you promise me one thing?" She asked hopefully.

"What is it?" I asked, trying not to sound too desperate.

"Take me to prom, Rob."

"I will," I said hopefully.

"I love you Rob," she replied.

"I love you too April. Everything will be okay," I said-- i didn't even believe the lie as it came out of my mouth. 

***

When i walked into school, everyone looked at me as if i was the one who 'kidnapped' April and Derek. That was what they were saying on the news anyway.

I had woken up in the morning to my radio. I listened as it said, "Breaking news: Two teenagers have been reported missing in the last twenty-four hours. It is said that they were both last seen at a school dance, and a wittness has come forward, stating that they were last spotted entering a car with three men, one suspected as being a student at the school. Police are investigating the matter, should you know anything-- please step forward and call--" 

I had turned off the radio before i let myself hear the phone number.

Sighing, i let go of the memory and continued my lonely walk down the corrider.

I was used to the weird looks, it was just now-- now i didn't even have April to tell me not to worry about it.

"Hey, what happened to your girly friend?" Some guiy said to me. Before i knew it, i was pushed up against a locker-- my shirt crumpled up in the hands of a jock.

"Everyone knows that you never treated April right, and now she's missing. What'd you do to her?" He yelled.

"What did I do to her? Pardon me, but how do you know anything about our relationship? I'll have you know that i would do nothing to ever disrespect April. So stop being so God-damned ignorant and wake up tp yourself- because i am no happier than you are."

"She came to school with bruises on her face and then she suddenly started dating you. Do you know now why everyone assumes you treat her so badly?"

"I'm aware of what happened to her face, because she was at my doorstep crying when it happened. She confided in me, she decided to tell me what happened and she was my only real friend. The least i could have done was be there for her. And when i finally asked her out and she said yes, i bet you all hated me even more-- because everyone knows she said no to you, and everyone knows she'd say no again," I replied.

He let go of me then, and the circle of kids around him were all shocked by what i had said.

"I'm sick of you all pushing me around. I know i dated a missing girl. In fact i still am. But you have no right to assume that I am the one who did anything bad to her, because you don't even know my first name," i said to them all.

"Of course we know you're name, Rob." Someone said sarcastically.

"Robert, actually," I replied-- breaking the circle and stalking off to class.

I ate lunch alone again, the weird looks continued. I stuck my earbuds in and chewed on my cardboard sandwhich. 

My phone buzzed, and i thought it was a message from Derek. Instantly my heart sank because i knew that the number would be traced to find the location of April.

It was my father though, and although i was still on edge-- i relaxed just the slightest bit.

"I won't even bother going after your pathetic mother. You have 24 hours to let me know where April is, or you die," it read.

I laughed out loud-- earning me even more looks from my peers.

"I'm better off dead," I replied.

I wish i was being selfish when i sent it, but i only had two people in my life. The harsh reality was that nobody would realise if i was dead.