Fun, Young Hearts

Distraction (Part 1)

Ryan pov

I hate these 'Family' nights, so fake. It's not a family if it's with someone you hate, like an egotistical blonde alcohol enthusiast whore that only cares about money, aka my father's girlfriend and second to worst mom of the year to her own five year old daughter. A table separates us. I peek up from staring at my menu to see them being coupley together and roll my eyes. I rest my forehead on the palm of my hand and look back down towards the menu laying on the table infront of me, trying to get lost in my thoughts, it's quite easy to be honest. I think about Brendon, the time in the bowling alley, the time at his house. I remember what his friends said about him being a slag, it upsets me a little to think that he's probably moved onto someone else. What am I saying 'probably' ofcourse he's moved on to someone else, it's been almost a week, we haven't had any contact outside of school since and inside school, well inside he keeps his distance, acts like nothing ever happened...and I just don't know how to feel about that, maybe it's so faculty doesn't find out... I just don't know.

"Ryan! Am I going to have to say you're name a third time?" He already said it twice?

"What?"

"We'd like you to be present for these family dinners"

"I'm here aren't I?"

" You are, but your mind is somewhere else!" I roll my eyes at his comment. "Look Ryan you asked for some family time and that's what I'm tryi..." I interrupt his rant by lashing out at him, triggered by his words 'you asked for some family time'

"I did NOT ask for family time, I asked for FATHER and SON time, some quality time with my dad that's what I asked for. I never get to spend anytime alone with you, you're always at work or drinking or with HER and drinking"

"Okay Ryan! Lower your voice! I'm a busy man I can't make time for everything I...."

"I'm your son you shouldn't have to make time for me, I should be a priority, do you eve..."

"Well you're spending time with me now, family time jus..."

"WE AREN'T A FAMILY!"... I yell, too loud this time, the majority of the restaurant we're in freezes and turns to my direction, like we're surrounded by meerkats. It's completely silent, if this were a film right now you'd hear crickets or the odd cough. I stand up and storm out of the restaurant, head down, once I'm outside and around the corner I stop, let out a sigh and then carry on.

I can see an argument going on across the street, I'm just like the people in the restaurant, thirsty for a bit of entertainment. My attention on this argument, I walk into someone, knocking all of there belongings on the floor. "I'm sorry" I say and I quickly bend down to pick up their bags up off of the concrete. The figure I bumped into stays silent and watches me pick up their things, it takes me a while to realise. "It's fine just leave me to pick up your things" I snap at them, there is no reply. I get back up on to my feet "Here's your ba... Brendon" He's just stood there with that stupid half smile on his face.

"In all fairness, you crash into me alot" that smile not fading the slightest

"Why didn't you help me, they're your things?!"

"I was enjoying the show" he takes the bags off of me

"The show! I'm glad me struggling to pick up your things was fun for you"

"Woah okay cmon man! First of all by The Show I mean the argument across the street, get over yourself maybe and Second of all you walked into me, I was standing still"

"Does it really matter, your things are off the floor" I barge past him but he grabs hold of my arm, stopping me.

"What did I do?"

"Nothing it wasn't you"

"Do you want to talk about it"

"Not really"

"Do you have a distraction?"

"Not really" I do but I'm not gonna tell him, it's him.

"I know something that will help, C'mon"

"What, where are we going?" I probably shouldn't go with him but where else was I going to go, home? So when my dad gets in he can complain at me and force me to apologise to her? No thanks.

"To my car"

"It's not going to be like the last two times is it, we're not going to your car to... you know?"

He turns around to face me, walking backwards "You didn't enjoy those times" he bites his lip and laughs a little. Before I can reply he returns to walking forwards, steps down the curb to his car and opens the boot. He throws his bags inside and locks it back up. "Don't look so worried kid, I'm just putting my bags away" he pats me on the arm and we start walking. 'kid' I'm not that much younger than he is.

We've been walking in silence for a few minutes, just taking in the scenery around us, it's not really a distraction if it's complete silence "Can I ask you something... wi... without it sounding weird?" I had to break the silence somehow.

"Sure" his eyes are now on me, not our surroundings. He's waiting for my question now, I really wished I hadn't asked because it's going to sound weird.

"When I was at your house and... and your room mate said you're a... well you're a slag, what im asking is... has, has there been anyone since... the bowling alley?" Fuck sake Ryan just spit it out! He looks down and let's out a small laugh, stalling his response I think. "I mean you don't. .. don't have to tel..." he interrupts

"No no its fine... there wasn't, when they called me a slag they were over exaggerating a bit" I smile at him and he smiles back. "We're here, down here!" He says as he grabs my hand and runs through this brick archway between a row of tall buildings, we get out the other side and stop in awe, it's so beautiful. Lights, flashing ones and Fairy ones too. Countless fairground rides and carnival games, Stalls selling fresh donuts, burgers and sugar coated sweets, alcohol aswell. I'm trying to take in all the scenery at once, but there's too much and it's all so pleasing.

"Hey Brendon!" I hear someone call, its his room mate Tyler, with some blonde girl. Brendon let's go of my hand as soon as he sees them, but to be honest, lost in my surroundings I never even realised he still had hold of my hand until he let go. He gives them both a hug and begins to introduce me.

"UhhhrrRyan right?" Tyler asks

"Yeahh... Tyler?" he hugs me but I don't hug back, I just keep my hands by my side and smile.

"Good memory, this is Jenna, my girlfriend, we're dating" the blonde girl hugs me, she's slim, average height at guess, very pretty.

"Well usually when you date a girl Tyler they are your girlfriend" she jokes with Tyler. "Sooo this is Ryan, the Ryan?" She asks, Tyler nods in reply. "It's nice to finally meet you Ryan. 'The Ryan? Nice to Finally meet you? Finally? How do they know about me, he must have spoken to them about me.

Sorry I haven't updated in a while I had a writing block also I was v embarrassed about writing awkward prolly bad smut...

I would've posted this earlier but I'M A MCR STAN AF AND WTF IS GOING ON RN WITH MCRX I'M! !!

Thankyou so much for reading <3