Speak-Adopted by 5sos

Chapter 15 (Almost Kiss)

•Time skip•

E L L A

It's been almost a month since Ashton and Luke found me at the hotel.  I told them exactly what Arzaylea had said to me.  Ashton told me that what she said was not true at all and that I wasn't just some charity case.  Luke kinda just stood there in shock.  He hadn't said that much to me after the fact, but I haven't worried about it too much.

It was pretty early in the morning, I haven't been getting much sleep lately.  I keep having the same nightmare about my mom over and over again.  I decided to just get up and start getting ready.  I was currently applying eyeliner to my right eye.  Once I was finished, I turned my head from side to side to make sure the wings were even.  Bryana had taught me how to use more makeup, and I was starting to get the hang of it.

There was a knock at the door. And then Luke walked in.  His hair was tousled and he had tired eyes.

"What are you doing up already?" He said. His voice was deep and groggy.

I grabbed the phone that was next to me and typed in my response.

"I could say the same to you." I wrote.

He squinted his eyes and looked at the message on my phone.  He sighed and sat on my bed, running a hand through his already messy hair.

"I haven't been sleeping lately." He said.

"What's been on your mind?" I typed into my phone, and then proceeded to show him.

He paused for a moment before responding.

"You" he said in a small voice.

I hadn't expected to hear that.  I looked down at the floor not knowing what to say, as a blush crept its way onto my cheeks. 

"Shit did I just say that out loud? Shit..." He trailed off almost in audibly, as he started rushing out of the room.

I got up and followed him down the stairs, as he veered for the kitchen.  He sat at the table and put his head in his hands.  I jumped onto the counter and stared at him, waiting for any kind of response.

L U K E

My mind was racing as I rushed out of Ella's room.  I was wrong when I said that Arzaylea might help me get my mind off of Ella.  It just made me think of Ella more.  It made me want her more.  I don't know why I said that.  I mean, I know why I said that, it's true but I don't know why I said it out loud.

I knew she was following me but I kept going and I went into the kitchen.  I sat down and put my head in my hands.  I looked up to see Ella sitting on the counter looking at me with furrowed eyebrows.  She tilted her head when I looked up at her.

I started pacing around.  She looked at me nervously.

"Erm.  You weren't supposed to hear that.  But yeah I think about you.  I think about us.  And I shouldn't be saying this right now because I know Ashton wouldn't want it and I know you probably don't want it, and I'm not with Arzaylea because I like her.  Trust me, Modest made me do it.  That's why she came home with us the night of the meeting.  Since then she's messed everything up, and what she said to you wasn't okay.  I tried talking Modest into letting me break up with her, but they wouldn't let me.  So, yah, I haven't been sleeping because all I can do is think about you.  And what I'm trying to say here, is that I really, and I mean really, like you.  And I'm sorry for avoiding you.  I thought it would get you off my mind but it hasn't.  Probably because your gorgeous and amazing and nice. And I'm sorry, because you're probably hearing this and you probably hate me now, but that's the truth." I finished, running out of breath from saying so much.  I hadn't noticed that I was crying until now.  I looked up at Ella and she was crying too.

Damnit.  I just fucked everything up.  She probably doesn't even want to live with us anymore.

She looked at me with an expression that I couldn't read.  She got up and so did I.  Just when I thought she was going to turn and walk away.  She ran over to me and wrapped me into a hug.  I instantly returned the hug.

She pulled back and looked up at me.  Her eyes flicked down to my lips and then back up to my eyes.  I licked my lips and started leaning in.  As she started to lean in too, we both heard the door creak open and we jumped apart.  The door flew open.

We looked towards it to find Michael standing in the doorway with wide eyes.

Oh shit.

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Yah I know it's pretty short but oh whale.  THIS BOOK HIT 320 READS OMFG THANK YOU GUYS.  Also I went to slfl and it was Ash's birthday performance, and Luke said that they were making that performance the best out of the entire tour.  I also got a shirt.  It was a magical night :) anyways love you guys and I'll try to update soon <3