I Am Schizophrenic

Chapter Three

Chapter Three

Saturday morning; normal families actually spend it with each other, unlike the Evans, it’s just as any day of their lives. Went downstairs finding everyone of them doing something alone, so I decided to go for a walk in the streets. People seemed happy and walking down the street together, while I was there walking alone, with headphones in my ears. I passed by a young girl with her mother, walking together while eating cotton candy. I smiled because it was so cute. Then I heard someone say Your mother didn’t love you, eh? I removed the headphones and started hearing the voice again Yes, she hates you. She wishes you were never born. I breathed hardly and said “Who’s this..?”

You know I’m right, Christina. I turned around and found a lady standing, with black hair and brown scary eyes. I was shocked and asked,

“Who are you..?”

I’m you. She said, I could hear her. I got confused and told her “I’m sorry, I don’t know you..”

Really? You live with me..every day, every minute and every second.

I got frightened and closed my eyes “You’re not real..”

You’ll see me real. They all hate you, Christina. Nobody loves you.

With my eyes closed I said “Jake does.”

No, they all hate you, Christina. Can’t you see? They all hate you, they all hate you…

Her words kept spinning in my mind ‘They all hate you, they all hate you..’

“Stop!” I begged.

That’s the truth, Tina. You’re hated.

“Stop!!!!” I started screaming. “STOP! YOU’RE LYING!” I kept screaming and screaming till I fell on the ground. I closed my eyes and screamed again, then people started to come near me and ask “Are you okay, little miss?” I stared at the ground with lost eyes, too shocked and shaking to answer anybody. I was feeling weird, I was cold, I wanted a hug; I wanted…Jake. People held me up and gave me tissues, they were talking to me but I was too puzzled to answer. Then I found Jake…I found him entering this crowd with sad eyes.

“Jake,” I said with relief.

“Tina, come with me.” he took my hand and let me out of the crowd. We started walking away, it was silent between us. I broke the ice and said,

“I saw a woman.” I told him.

“How was she like?”

“Dark; she kept telling me that I’m hated and I should deal with it.”

He looked at me for a second and looked away. I looked at him in the eye and asked him “But you love me, Jake; right?”

He smiled at me a kind smile and said “Of course I do.”

I sighed in relief. Then I asked again “Who was she?”

He crossed his eyebrows and said “She’s Darkened.”

“Darkened? Is that her name?”

“Yeah.  She’s filled with darkness and hate. Don’t ever listen to her, Tina.” He warned me.

I nodded, “How did she know me?”

He was silent for a second and said “She knows.”

He didn’t give an exact answer, and I didn’t know why. But I continued walking silently till I reached home.

I quickly went to take a hot shower, after what had happened to me, I needed to relax and lay down. Then that I slept. After hours of my sleep, I woke up to drink then I heard whispers. I turned on the lights to see what was that. Then I focused on the whispers to hear them well.

Want a peaceful sleep? You’ll never get one. I swallowed from my fright.

“Darkened..?” I asked with my eyes closed.

Little Christie knows my name. she said in a melody.

“Leave me alone.”

Alone? Alone is your destiny. Forever alone, forever alone, forever alone.

She repeated it again and again. I covered my eyes with my hands and said “Stop! Leave me alone!”

Forever alone, forever alone, forever alone..FOREVER ALONE.

I started screaming, screaming wildly. Covering my face with my hands. Screaming more and more and she’s repeating more and more. At last, my family rushed into my room to see what’s happening.

“What’s all this screaming!?” my mother asked me in shock.

I whispered while I was crying my eyes out, in a fainted voice “Darkened..”

“What?” she came next to me and said “You must have had a nightmare, eh?”

I was still crying and lost, I nodded.

“Grow up.” I heard Isabella commented.

Harry came and kissed my forehead then they all left. I went back to try to sleep, all I had in mind was ‘Forever alone.’