I Am Schizophrenic

Chapter Eight (Part One)

Chapter Eight

I haven’t spoken to anybody since my return from the therapist. It was so humiliating for me, embarrassing as well. I was pictured as a freak in front of the therapist, she thought I was too stupid, and she wanted me to answer her questions simply. I wouldn’t give them the chance, to make me surrender to their imaginary illness. They say I’m schizophrenic; proof, please? I don’t believe them, I’m not crazy, I’m perfectly smart.

Anyway, I needed to get out of that damned house. Oh, and my car was perfectly crashed, so I hadn’t any way to go around except my feet. So, I went out, taking a walk around, heading to the town’s park, where I usually sit there under a tree and listen to music. As I sat there, lost in my thoughts and staring at nowhere, I felt someone came and sat next to me, I turned to my right and saw who it was, it was him, Jake. I stared at him, as I was hardly trying to fight my tears back, he looked at me in a sad look, my blank stare turned into a disgusting-blaming stare. Silence occurred between us, for a decent while, he looked like he had nothing to say to me, neither I did. Although, I wanted to slap him so much. But I couldn’t bring myself to.

“I know you hate me.” he started, looking shamefully down.

“Good that you know.”

“Christina..”

I interrupted him; “You’re dating my sister! And you showed me that you care so much about me! which one of us have you known first? Tell me, Jake!” I told him angrily. My anger turned into tears, well, I failed to fight them back. Jake looked at me in the eyes, in twisted lips and ashamed eyes.

“I broke up with her.”

“And I’m that naïve to believe?” I told him, then a sarcastic laugh was followed.

“Tina, I didn’t know.”

“You’re a liar! All of you are liars.”

“I love you, Tina.” He stated calmly.

I stood up in anger, trying to leave. But he yet managed to hold my hand, trying to prevent me from leaving. Struggling to leave, while he was holding me..then suddenly; his eyes met mine and he kissed me, it was heavenly and I felt that I didn't need anything in this world except him. Then we kept staring in each other’s eyes, in a second I forgot how much I disliked him for dating my sister, I forgot everything. I only knew that I was madly in love with my amazing best-friend, and all I wanted was to keep staring in his blue, beautiful eyes..forever. Sparks flew, and I felt butterflies in my stomach, it was so cute, what was between us. We were embracing, but I heard someone calling my name “Christina!” I looked behind me, it was Derrick. Perfect moment, jerk. I though. He approached, smiling to me as usual..despite of what I did to him last time, but he managed to have no dignity.

“Hey, Tina.”

“Hi.”

“What are you doing here!?” he asked in high-spirited voice. I turned around to face Jake, to introduce him to Derrick..but he was gone. Maybe he left because he saw Derrick, maybe..he felt jealous?

“Nothing.” I replied.

“How are..you?” he asked. I knew what he meant, again, he was being rude. But I decided to neglect him.

“Never been better!” I replied, in a sarcastic-provocative way.

“You sure!?”

“Yes, Derrick?”

“So, we can hang out tonight? Go to the movies?” he asked.

“Is that..a date?” I asked weirdly. I didn’t know how to respond, but I felt deceived, because why would he date a girl who he thinks she’s schizophrenic? Weird much, eh?

“You can call it one.” He replied with a smirk.

“But I have a boy—, never mind.” I held my tongue instantly, I wasn’t officially dating Jake, yet. “Well, I’m so sorry. Rejected.” I continued.

“Why?” he asked.

“Because, why would you date a girl who you think she’s mentally ill, and crazy!?” I asked him straightly.

“I didn’t—I just..know you’re good, I believe that. And I have those weird feelings towards you, although you’re just my lab-partner!” He said.

“I’m sorry, Derrick.”

He whispered in my ears “Someday, you’ll know that I’m better than him.” Then he kissed my cheek..then left. Weird lab-partner he is, I was too astonished, I mean..wow; two boys in a day? I’m such a player, ha-ha. Anyways, I ignored the Derrick fact, and then left the park, heading home. While thinking about my beautiful, beautiful love—Jakey. He literally made me smile, and I was so in love with him.

On my way home, I stopped at a coffee-shop, to buy cappuccino (which was my favorite) as I left the coffee-shop, and started trailing off, I again heard someone call my name, and again turned around to find..Sarah? it was my sister, Sarah. I was surprised to see her, I didn’t know what she wanted but, I stopped and said;

“Sarah?”

“Hello, Christina.” She replied, blankly.

“What brings you here?”

“I’m here to see you.”

“Yes? And you want?” I asked her.

“If you want to keep Jake, you need to do what I tell you exactly.”

“And what is it, you want me to do?” I asked, I was shocked by my sister’s way of talking, she sounded so weird and threatening.

“I want you to kill Edward Evans, our father.”

I stood there, with my mouth opened, trying to comprehend what Sarah was saying. She was obviously out of her mind.