Stefan
It's been almost two months since Elyssa died. So now, both of the people that meant the most to me in my life are gone, forever. I wish forever was a good word, like "I'll love you forever" but it seems almost always a bad, curse word in my vocabulary.I've woken up having to brief myself on the events that have taken place. No, I tell myself, Damon will not be downstairs making you breakfast. And the other horrible reminder, no Elyssa will not be a few houses away anymore.
Sometimes I pretend like those things aren't true. I pull out memories from my mind, and make them seem real. The hard part is, is knowing they once were real. Those wonderful people, with exquisite souls once roamed this Earth and made not only each other happy, but me as well.
Flashback
I walked slowly, and steadily to the podium. Before me was Elyssa, with her white gown on, and pale features. It felt like some twisted dream as I stood up here in front of the town of Mystic Falls sweating through my suit. I needed Damon. This was wrong, I should not be here about to summarize the life of someone I never got the chance to truly know for all she was. Damon should be the one standing here. My eyes were forming tears that fell faster than my reflexes noticed. Everyone stared at me with this sudden look of despair. I didn't want their pity. I survived five hundred years without it.
You can do this Stefan. Speak, utter the words you have been holding in.
I placed my hand gently on the podium, to steady myself.
"Elyssa did not deserve this," I began, "She was too young to have passed this soon. Elyssa was always full of happiness even when she was sad. She had this light in her that lit up a room, that comforted you through your troubles. I saved her life once before, and would do it all over again if I had the chance."
But I did, I could have saved her life, but I didn't, I followed her wishes. What a foolish thing to do.
The Night Elyssa Died"Elyssa please don't do this, wake up!" I shook the lifeless body that lay still on my couch.
She never opened her eyes, but there was the slightest movement in which she took my hand in hers.I shut my eyes, and was suddenly drifted into a sort of parallel universe.
"Stefan." Someone whispered.
I looked around but saw nothing except darkness."I'm here, baby." It was Elyssa. Her voice echoed through me, sending shivers throughout my body. Although she was not near, but the farthest away I could feel her presence everywhere. I relished in this moment for I knew there would never be one like it again.
"Please come back to me." I begged. I could feel her tears, like rain, begin to drizzle down on me from above. I soaked in the way they felt, cold at first, but in the end warming to my soul.
"Baby, you know I can't do that." I wanted to hold in her my arms, I wanted to change everything here and now. I needed her back. I needed to feel her gentle touch on my face once more.
"Don't blame yourself, Stefan." The sound of her soothing voice, eased my trembling hands. Her words were like silk, they glided into my soul gently, easing the pain.
"This is not your fault, baby." She reassured me, yet somehow her words sounded like a lie.
I knew this was the end, in my mind I knew it all too well. Except in my heart, there was still hope for another reality. A reality where Elyssa and I were happy together, where pain didn't exist. It wasn't a reality though, it was a fantasy. It would never exist. Pain would always invite itself into my soul, leaving me with no choice but to accept the fact that I would never know true happiness.
It was a sad reality that fate has chosen for me. I presume that's the punishment I get for disobeying the laws of mortality.
I still sat in the void of darkness, with a beautiful voice looming above me, "How am I supposed to go on without you?" I could feel her gentle touch on my face again.
"You won't be able to. But I promise you that one day, someone will show you how to live without Damon and I." Elyssa said.
"Are you happy?" I asked, before the darkness dissipated.
"Yes I am, Damon is too." I smiled and shut my eyes.
Once I reopened them, reality set in. Elyssa lay on my couch, lifeless. I called 911.
As they carried her body away from me, I thought about Elyssa's hard truth. I would not be happy, I would not move on without them. While that sank in, the ambulance drove away, with Elyssa's body inside.
The Funeral
"Unfortunately I do not have that chance. I never thought I would be happy again, and that's when Elyssa found me. She showed me how to hope again, how to love again. She poured her soul to me. I know it would be selfish of me to keep it all, and I know she would want me to share with you all. So, that's what I'm going to do," I paused to recollect my scattered thoughts, "I will always miss you Elyssa, I hope you're happy."
Her words returned to me as I walked back to my seat, "Yes I am, Damon is too."
Author's Note
Thank you all for the reads on my journeys! I hope you guys enjoy, and comment below if you like it or not!!
xoxo,
Bree

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