Its Not Summer Anymore

Chapter 15

I look at the test and my face goes white. I lay it on the sink and fall to the floor. My breath turns heavy. And I pretty much go into a panic attack. As tears fall down my face. I don't know if I'm crying cause I'm sad or happy. I just can't tell.

Keagan walks in looks at the test and then kneels down in front of me. He grabs my hands and and brings them to his lips and kisses them softly. "I have to tell Jasmine and Zyla." I say wiping my tears away and jump up fast. My minds racing. And I can't stop thinking or I'll crash.

"Pity party's over. I have to get home." I tell Keagan grabbing my bag. "My sister will drive you home." He says shutting the bedroom door behind him. "Keagan promise me that your stay with me. Till I can stop thinking." I say running down the stairs. He nods his head and pulls on a clean shirt.

I get out of the car and run inside. With Keagan trying to catch up. I open the door and through my bag on the ground. "Zyla and Jasmine will be here soon." Keagan nods putting his hate for Zyla aside for me.

2 minutes later Zyla and Jasmine walk in to the house. "Katelyn where are you." Jasmine yells. "Here come in the living room." I say rushed still having a panic attack. "What's going on."Zyla says setting her bag down and giving Keagan a weird look.

They seat down and I say," You too Keagan sit down." He dose as I say knowing not to argue when I'm like this.

He sits next to Zyla and then scoots over as far as he can. I past back and fourth for a while. And Jasmine says," Katelyn's what's going on. Did you kill somebody?" She say kinda serious. I chuckle and keep pasting "Worst." I say finally able to stand still.

"You guys are my best friends and I know you all can keep your mouth shut. So I'm going to tell you something that you don't want to hear and will really want to blab but I beg you please don't. I say starting to past again. "What is it." Jasmine yells. I take a deep breath and stand still. "I'm pregnant." I say with a blank face.

Zyla and Jasmine just sit there speechless again. "Wait are you sure." Jasmine says confused. "Cause you weren't...." "Yes I'm sure. I took a test." I say assuring her. "Well your not gonna keep it." Zyla says with a small smile. I pull at my hands and Keagan elbows Zyla. "I don't know. But first I have to find out who the father is." I say sadly. "Wait you don't know who the father is?" Zyla says a little rudely. I shake my head no and she makes a gross face. Jasmine elbows her hard and gives her a mean look.

"Uhhh. I need a cigarette." I mumble to myself as I walk outside. And grab the box of cigarettes out of the message box. (my hiding spot) I grab the lighter from the back of the mail box. And stick the white,dry cylinder in my mouth. I light it quickly and start sucking in the strong smoke. Jasmine walks outside with Keagan and they both stare at me smoking. They both know I smoke once in a while ,so why do they look so shocked.

"What are you doing?" Jasmine says harshly . "Smoking. What dose it look like I'm doing." I say rudely blowing the smoke into the direction of the wind making sure none of the sent gets on me. My mom would kill me if she new I was smoking.

I put the but in my mouth and take along drag. Before I was done the cigarette was snatched from my mouth. "Hey." I yell at Jasmine as she takes the cigarette puts it out and throws it in the damp grass. "Do you really think that's a good idea? Derrick wouldn't be happy with you killing his baby." She says crossing her arms.

"It might not even be his. And I know for a fact that Tyler would not care if I killed his baby." I say crossing my arms.

Keagan walks up to me and whispers in my ear loud enough for Jasmine to hear,"But I do know for a fact that you would care if you killed that baby." My face drops a little along with Jasmine's and I hug my stomach,"Fine I'll stop doing drugs,drinking and smoking." I say quietly.

We walk back inside and Zyla walks up to me. "I'm really sorry about the whole abortion thing." She says looking like she might cry. "Its okay." I say pulling her into a hug. She pushes me off a little quick and says,"Oh my moms on her way I still have homework to do see you tomorrow?" She says cheerfully walking out the door before I answer. "Okay then." I say confused.

"Oh shit. How am I going to tell my mom?" I say concerned. And then fall back on the coach. With Jasmine and Keagan at my sides thinking away.

"You could..." Jasmine says then stops pushing the bad idea away. "Oh. You could tell her..... the truth." Keagan says a little sarcastic I look over at Jasmine and we make a face at each other.

If my mom ever found out that I was pregnant she would dress me in one of those head rap things that cover your face that Indian women have to wear. And probably put a tracker in my arm and zap me when ever I looked at a boy.

Then I think about telling her the truth for a second. She would probably be pissed for a week or so and then get over it when we move to West Virginia. Because my brothers would never let me live it down, it would be worst then having to wear that Indian rap and never let me go out with another living sole. She also knows I would listen to the boys better then her.

"Time up." Keagan says braking me from my thought I look out the kitchen window and see her car pull into the drive way. "shit." I whisper under my breath. I jump up off the coach along with Keagan and Jasmine at the sound of her footsteps coming up the porch stairs. I walk to the door slowly and grip the handle tight as I turn the knob. She smiles at me and kisses my cheek as she walks into the door.

She walks into the living room and says" Oh. Hi Keagan and Jasmine! What are you doing here?" she says sweetly but you can tell she's a little annoyed that I didn't ask if they could come over.

"Well, um I'll explain." I say a little nervous. "Yes you will Katelyn." she says normal but I can tell she's made since she never calls me Katelyn in less I'm in trouble. She stands there with her arms crossed and her tongue in her cheek. "Maybe you should sit down." I say gesturing to the coach. She nods not arguing and sits.

I take a deep breath. " Well what is it?" she says a little rudely. I look at Jasmine and Keagan as they both just nod at me, signaling me to go ahead. "Mom." I say biting my lip as my eyes start to water. I take a deep breath and breathe it out slowly," I'm pregnant, mommy." I say bursting into tears and falling to the floor. Keagan grabs me and hugs me to his chest, rubbing my head shhhhing me softly.

My mom sits there speechless for a long while as I cry into Keagan and Jasmine arms. She stands up and opens her arms. I fall into them and cry out, " I'm sorry. I'm so sorry mommy. I'm so sorry." she kisses my head and cry's just as hard as me. I keep apologizing over and over again as she holds me and crying with me saying nothing. Jasmine and Keagan are crying and holding each other now too.

My mom pushes me back from the hug and dries her tears along with mine as I stand there just making more for her to wipe away. "All I want is it to be Derrick's. I will be able to except this baby if its Derrick's." she says crying. " I don't know mom....I really don't know." I say tears running down my face into my mouth and lining my jaw.

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Author's note: I'm drawing a lot of blanks. So if anybody has an idea that I can put in my story or a twist I can add. Please comment. Please I would love your guys idea's.