Its Not Summer Anymore

Chapter 18

I wake up next to Keagan, he's still asleep and he looks like a little baby so peaceful and cute. I think of what my baby would look like would it have blue eyes, green eyes, both? I lay in bed think about the 2 weeks here a lot of shit has happened and I wish I could just pack my stuff and say good bye. But what is broken must be fixed and knowing me I have to go out with a bang. I'm not the type of girl to just fade away. I need to plan something, something great, something amazing, something that people are going to talk about forever. A party's to simple everyone has those. No, I need a Event. My train of thought is broken by Kegen letting one rip, it smelled so bad I had to leave the room. I run down the stairs to make breakfast.

I run into the kitchen and grab the pancake mix and blue berry's out of the fridge. I start to mix the pancakes when i hear someone say,"I love pancakes." I jump a little not expect him to be there. He stands in the kitchen with just boxers on and green blood shot eyes. "I forgot you where here." I say as my voice cracks. Tyler walks toward me and my heart races a little, on sure if I'm scared of him or mad. He has so much sorrow in his eyes he looks like a puppy. "I'm so sorry about last night I know I shouldn't of come over but I was so drunk I just ended up here." He says as his voice trails off a little. "How did you know I was here?" I say a little scared. "Jasmine told me." He says confused

"When did you see Jasmine she was sick last night." "No. She was at Hannah's party last night. Grinding on some guy all night." "That little bitch" I say under my breath. "So I know you don't really want to talk about this but is it really not my baby?" "No its not." "Wait how do you know did you do a DNA test." "No. But I just know." "I want a DNA test if it's not mine I'll leave you alone but if it is, then I will step up and take of him or her I don't care what it is as long as it's mine." "IT'S NOT YOURS." I accidentally say a little louder then I ment to.

"You don't want it to my baby do you? Wow. I thought we could start over, be something, a family maybe. But you don't want me, you want that rich sun of a bitch don't you?" I stare blankly at him. Did I want Derrick to be the father just cause he has more money or because he's a better person maybe a little of both. "DON'T YOU." He yells. I could feel his anger building

up and I was ready for pain in my face, soon. I was bracing my self for it, but before he could hit me Kegen came down stairs. "I think it's time for you to leave Tyler." Keagan says with his fist clenched. "I think your right. I'm glad we talked Kate gives me a idea of who you really are, the same old bitch I fell in love with." Tyler says going to walk out. "If I was such a bitch then why did you fall in love with me?" I yell at his back, he looks at me a little hurt then walks out slamming the door behind him.

"Are you okay did he hit you did he hurt you, I swear to god if he hurt you." "No he didn't hurt me Keke I'm okay, let's have some pancakes." I say changing the subject.

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"I think I need a DNA test so I can be for sure who's baby it is." I say with a mouth full of pancake. "Okay well let's do that." Kegen says with a kind smile, a ready for anything kinda smile. "We cant." "Why not?" "Well you have to wait 10 weeks before they can get a read on it, and I'm only 2 weeks along."

"And you won't be here in 10weeks." Kegen says finishing my sentence sadly. I go and grab another piece of bacon and cover it in ketchup. Cravings are weird. "Well what do you want to do today Keke." "Well your mom called me this morning. Waking me up, to tell me that you have a doctors appointment." He says raising an eyebrow. This is what I was dreading, cause once you go to the doctor once they confirm your pregnant there's no going back.

《《《《《《Later that day》》》》 "I made doctors appointment today, so you'll be missing school tomorrow. " That was the last thing my mom said to me all night.

So i went into my room and looked through the letters. I REALLY NEEDED DERRICK. He would know just what to say, just what do. But he's not here and all i have is 3 letters left. I scramble through them over and over like I was making a life decision as to which one to choose. I finally pick the one that says "Open When You Need To Know How Much I Love You". I tear the envelope off like it's a 10000 years old and I'm scared to break it. I finally get the envelope off and open the letter. 10 hot pink rose petals fall out on my lap and I laugh at how beautiful they are, like there mocking me. I finally pull myself together and read the letter," Baby girl, Kitty, Katelyn, My love, my gem, my everything. I can keep going and going but I'll stop there because I have a limited amount of space. I love you so much and I don't just want to leave it at that, because your so special to me that you don't deserve to have the same 3 words every guy says to their girlfriends. No you deserve so much more so I'm going to list the reasons why I love you. 10 rose petals equals 10 reasons, I had to keep it at 10 because if I listed all the reasons I love you, you'd be crushed by rose petals right now.

1. You have such a big heart I don't know anyone who has a bigger heart then you, you care about people no matter who they are, you always find the good in them and bring good out in everybody.

2. You don't care what people think you can find light even in hell.

3. You are so beautiful you may not see it or feel it but every time you walk into a room I can guarantee that all the guys take double glances at you. Your so beautiful that I don't ever get tired of looking at you and I could look at you for eternity.

4. Your smile can light up the world. Some peoples smiles are pretty but yours is amazing you could go into a pageant wearing a sweat shirt and sweat pants, but as soon as you flash that smile there's no competition.

5. You have so many characteristics you can be a country girl, a rock girl, a punk girl, a city girl, a tomb boy to a girly girl in seconds. You can change from sweet to cute to sexy in a minute and I love that about you.

6. You will do anything. You have no fear no second guessing. Which sometimes isn't always good, but I'd rather do a 1000 dangers things with you then be with a 1000 safe girls.

7. You can always put a smile on people's faces. No matter who it is you can always make everyone smile. You just have to give them one look and their smiling in seconds.

8. You have so many talents. I have never met anyone as amazing as you. You play 3 instruments, can do anything no matter what it is you'll figure it out. I could give you a unsolvable puzzle and you would work at it till it was solved.

9. Your so strong. I have never met anyone that is as strong as you. The way you handle things stuns me. Your father, uncle, aunt, 2 best friend, and second mom died and your still standing. Someone with that many loses aren't even functioning let alone living there lives to the fullest like you are.

10. The biggest reason I love you is because I can see a future with you. I have never been able to see a future with any other girl. I can see myself coming home to you after work, coming home to our kids and farm and house, having a life with you, growing old with you, I can even see our Graves next to each other.

Well now you know only 10 reasons why I love you there are so many more. I am so glad your mine I'm so glad I have you and damn do I love you.

See you soon your dearest, Derrick"

I close the letter pick up the flower pedals and go to bed for along day tomorrow.