"Niall, I don't know if I can go." I sighed resting my elbow on his kitchen counter.
"You promised." He looked at me pleadingly.
"I know but my doctor's appointment is tomorrow and these tests are being taken and I don't want to go if I really am that sick. I'll be holding you back and throwing up all the time." He pulled me into a hug as my eyes started tearing up.
"I'll always want you with me. Even if you're sick, if you think you'll be ugly because you're bald, but you won't be because you're gorgeous. If you ever feel alone. You won't be holding us back, you'll have things more fun. Besides they said that you had the majority of the cancer inside of you right." He slightly pulled away so he could see me. I nodded slightly.
"That's not all the cancer. Maybe it's gone."
"Niall-" he cut me off.
"I know it sounds crazy but...what if. What if things just work out all together?" His question got me thinking about what am I going to do without him for a year. I have no idea.
Well, 7 months in my case. But still, that's a long time. I wouldn't ever see him again.
"I'll tell you what." I said.
"I'll talk to my doctor and see if it's okay for me to go and if it is, I'll go. If it's not," his face became low,"then you'll have to sneak me on the plane." I said.
He smiled, understanding that I'll go anyways. It'd be best for me I would think. He pressed his lips to mine, smiling. He gripped the back of my thighs, signaling me to jump, which I did and wrapped legs around his waist.
You know, he's really not that tall of a guy, but I'm a very short person so... I let of and jumped back down glancing over his shoulder looking at the time.
"11:12." I mumbled.
"I need to get to bed." I pulled his arm with me upstairs as I heard his small laugh under his breath.
I flopped into bed with my glasses and pajamas on with my freshly wet hair from my shower.
"Niall, it's midnight and my appointment is at nine so I'm going to bed." Before I turned off the lamp he cut me off.
"Wait-...I'll come with you." I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion.
"Let me come to the doctor's with you." He stated with his hand loosely wrapped around the arm I was turning off the light with.
"Niall, I don't want to see me get the tests and everything and-"
"Autumn." He stared into my eyes.
"I'll be there to make you feel better." His eyes were filled with hope as his voice was too and he looked at me pleadingly.
"Oh fine you loser."
I threw his arm off of me and smiled as I could sense his mood change from anxious to happy. He laid his head back on his pillow as I turned off the light. I laid back down into the covers and he wrapped his arm around my waist pulling my body into his bare chest. I pulled my glasses off of my head and load them on the side table. I immediately melted into Niall's arms. They were the softest, most comforting thing in the world right now. As my nervousness took over me for my tests tomorrow, Niall pulled me in closer sensing my body tense.
"Go to bed." He whispered sweetly. He stroked his free arm up and down my forearm. He gave me chills as I feel fast asleep.
I screamed terrified at the sound and Niall woke up.
"What's wrong?!" He yelled over the music. I unlocked my phone making it automatically shut off.
"Sorry, my phone scared me." I held my hand to chest covering my heart. Oh my god that scared the living daylights out of me. I was breathing heavy and looked back at Niall. He started laughing and slightly pushed me.
