There I was.
Cold.
Dead almost.
I was laying upon something I'd never even think that I would be laying on.
I'm on a scanner. A large "bed" type surface with a large and long scanner above my head. The lights inside it move up and down. They kinda remind me of Niall's eyes.
If only he was here to support me. I slightly lifted my head to see if I could see the doctors.
There he was. Looking right into my eyes. As soon as I saw his face and he saw mine, we both instantly lit up. I laid my head back down with a smile. He was here.
All of this testing going on inside this tube I was in took a while. I laid there and slightly hummed myself holding back the tears that were forming in my eyes. I didn't want to be alone. Ever. I started thinking about back to yesterday.
Niall said he would never leave me. If I was sick or healthy. That's amazing.
Most people when they find out that there's something wrong, they leave. And I should know that. But with Niall, he accepts me. And that's the kind of attention I've never really had before.
I heard a faint buzzer coming from the room Niall and the doctors were in and I supported my body with my elbows as I saw what was happening. All the lights in the tube turned red and air stopped circulating as the tube door slid shut at the end.
I pulled the straps off of me and struggled trying to open the tiny tube door. Keep in mind that this space isn't large and I'm extremely claustrophobic.
"HEEEEELP! HEEELP!" Sobs are escaping my mouth as I'm gasping for air. It's becoming a struggle to keep my eyelids open and oxygen is running low.
I sit back after one last bang on the tube door and give up hope. I was going to die of cancer anyway. Why not just die now? I want to.
I'll be alone. Niall doesn't care about me. He's messing with me because he feels sorry for me. He doesn't want me with him. I'll be ugly when I'm bald and I'm ugly now. That's what tweets are telling me at least.
Please God.
Please let me die.
I hear a smash and two strong arms wrap up and around my shoulders and carry me away. I feel myself collapse onto tile and a whole lot of shouting going on.
NIALL
She looked up at me. Im glad the doctor came back to invite me to watch. I'm hoping that this test will remove it from her. I just want her to be happy and get what she wants.
She laid back down and I saw her relax.
"Uh oh." That doctor said.
"Uh oh? What's -what's uh oh?" I asked.
"The tube shut down. She going under lockdown!" He yelled.
"EVERYONE OUT!" He shouted and all the doctors were scurrying.
I pulled his lab coat back and balled it in my fist.
"YOU CANT JUST LEAVE HER IN THERE TO DIE!" I yelled with fury. How could he?
"Sorry." He breathed and got away.
I burst out the door and ran up to the tube. Autumn had given it one last bang before she completely fell back. I smashed through the glass and dragged her out if that room and into the hallway where she just collapsed.
AUTUMN
"Alright thank you." I heard little muffled words and a door shut.
I opened my eyes and there he was waiting for me.
"Hey, how ya feeling?" He asked.
"Better, Niall." I sighed breathing in actual air.
I let it go deeply and smiled.
"You okay." He came up beside my hospital bed and held my hand.
"Just fine." I smiled.
"Well, the doctor said we'll be outta here in no time." Niall smiled right back.
I started thinking back on the tube. How much I wanted to die. Oh my god I wanted my life to be gone.
"Niall, if I ask what I want could I have it?"
"Of course, what is it?"
"I want to die."
"What?" He stood up.
"When I was in that tube, I -I gave up. Your life seemed better without me in the first place and you didn't seen to like me when you first met me. You'll be dragged back around me because of my cancer and you'll hate being around me. And when something isn't fun another word for it is dead. People are starting to hate on me and you. I don't want that. So please, kill me now." Tears were lightly coming out of both of our eyes.
"No, no no no no no. Autumn. You're the best thing that's happened to me. I've loved you from the start. And I can't lose you." He begged, kneeling and grabbing my hand looking into my eyes.
"But Niall," I stroked his face between my tears.
"You said you'd give me what I want. I want to die."
dang a lot of my friends are starting to get wattpad and they are reading my fanfics -_-. Hello Pao, Taylor, Abby, and Ashleigh, OH and Bridget, Becca, And Kristin. Wow this is awkward. Okay SOFTD: round and Round by Imagine Dragons.
FILLER CHAPTER!!
-Deanna
