"But I don't want you to die." He held my hand as he kneeled by my bed.
"I'm going to die of cancer Niall. We can't keep forgetting about that." He stood up.
He kicked a rolling chair a grunted. Niall sat down on the chair next to my bed and put his head in his hands as he harshly dug his nails into his scalp.
"No, no. You're gonna live, you're gonna be healthy, and you're gonna come on tour with-with me and - and Harry and Zayn and Louis and-and Liam. And then after it's over we'll sit with each other by a fire and I'll hold you in my arms. You're beautiful healthy self." He debated.
All I can say is:"Okay" and I did to make him feel better.
His jitters calmed down and he smiled kneeling up to kiss my lips.
"Niall - I." My lungs began to give in. Breathing was becoming harder and I began heaving.
"NIALL- GET THE-DOC -DOC." I couldn't finish.
NIALL
I bursted into the hall.
"HELP! SHES DYING HELP!" I didn't really know what to yell but people were coming. I ran back in the room to find the girl that I have fallen in love with heaving and choking, fighting for an ounce of air.
"Stay with me honey. Come on Autumn. You promised." I smacked her hand a few times until the doctors took her away.
I turned around and kicked the same chair I had kicked earlier.
"DAMMIT!" I yelled as my foot came in contact with the stem of the chair.
I broke down on the floor as I threw my head in my hands. It blocked out the loud sobs.
I couldn't lose her. Who would scratch my back to sleep at night? Who would turn out the lamp before bed? Who would tell me that they would be right next to me when I wake up? Who will text me sweet things or make my tea in the morning?
I loved it when Autumn sneezed. She scrunched her nose like a bunny and sneezed really loud. She always blushes because I laugh at her.
I love giving her compliments and running my fingers through her soft, thick hair.
I have fallen so quickly for this girl, but she is being ripped from my fingers and I just have to sit back and watch it happen.
"Mr. Horan?" A nurse popped her head in. I lifted my puffy face and stood up.
"Yes ma'am?"
"Ms. Lewis is alright."
A wave of relief washed over inside my body. I felt like collapsing but not without seeing Autumn first.
"Where is she?"
"She will be here momentarily, the doctor will bring her in and then speak with the both of you."
"Thank you." I took the nurse's hand and kissed it before she left.
She's okay.
She's alright.
I get to keep her.
The doctor burst through the door and rolled her bed back in.
"Hey." She weakly said. I stood by her side and held her hand.
"Hi."
"Why- why were you crying?" She asked, weakly wiping one off of my face.
"I was scared baby."
"Well, I'm- I'm o- I'm oka-" I she stopped talking. It seemed like her whole body went on shut down.
"No, no Autumn. Autumn. AU-"
"SHES ALRIGHT!" The doctor yelled before I could shake her to wake her.
"You sure?"
"Positive, we put her on some medicine that'll make her sleepy for the next two-three hours." I sat down in a chair and watched my beautiful girl sleep soundly in the bed.
"Now, her leukemia wasn't fully there to begin with and you know that, correct?"
"Yes sir." I nodded.
"Now I have some good news," my face lit up,"The radiation poison that was inside the tube with her when the emergency occurred removed the disease from her body." I stood up in disbelief.
"Are you serious?"
"Pardon?"
"Are you joking?"
"I'm a doctor, why would I joke?"
"Thank you!" I hugged the man. I didn't care.
"Now Mr. Horan there are some things you need to do to keep her healthy. Remember that she has not fully recovered yet. Please remember that."
"Of course."
"You need to let her take 2 of these a day, and two of these a day." He held up two bottles of small pills.
"Yes sir." I nodded.
"I'll let you go after a few hours when she wakes up. Warning, she will be drowsy for the rest of the day." He warned. I nodded and he exited the room.
Honey, I guess you will be turning out the lamp tonight.
awwww so things did work out! I'm sorry I haven't updated in a long time! Dang I miss y'all. I've started on a new fanfic that's why! Thanks so much for reading and please remember to vote. This book has 285 reads, can we get it to 300 by the end of the year? That's our goal! Thanks again!
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