Maybe I'm not Worthless (A Jimin and BTS fic)

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JB pov ~

I left because I felt uncomfortable in that whole entire situation.Whenever I was in the same room as them I feel uncomfortable. I'm like that third wheel nobody wants there. Well Jimin wants me but he loves everyone and wants everyone to be there and have a good time. He's just a loving person. I wish I could be that way. I wish people flocked to me the way they flocked to Jimin. I wish people got excited when I walked in a room like they did with Jimin. I wish I wasn't invisible.

I guess it's Karma. I guess Jimin felt invisible for some time too. I just didn't want people to be forced to have me on their team. I would support them at the performance though. They didn't need me. They would do great without me. I smiled praying JR didn't try to rap. His rap was horrible. We once had to do a music video for music class and I sang and JR rapped and let's just say I'm not the reason we got the C.

My smile fell as I realized we probably wouldn't make anymore of those memories together. After this year id probably be forgotten about. I guess things happened for a reason. Karma is coming back to take revenge on me for hurting Jimin. I understand. I deserve more than that. So what better thing to do than go home? My dad's house to be more specific.

I climbed up the wooden stairs leading to our small but expensive home. I swore they were about to break everytime I climbed up or down them. I used my key to open the door and go inside. My father was standing in the kitchen with a beer in his hand like always. He looked to me and his eyes filled with anger and frustration. He threw the beer bottle at me as soon as I turned the corner. I ducked as it hit the wall behind me. "Look who's back? The kid who has done nothing but disappoint me since birth. You know I wanted a girl the second time around but no , I had you," he slowly came closer but I didn't back away. I was going to take what was given to me because this is what I deserve.

I closed my eyes as I felt a sting on my left cheek. Before I could tell what was going on I was falling to the ground. My father had pushed me and took his time kicking me in the sides with his boots. He hovered over me as he hit me in the chin and the nose causing it to bleed. He hit my face as I felt my eye bruising again.

It continued for about 5 minutes until he went upstairs wobbling and almost falling off every step. I slowly got up and looked at my face which looked worse than what Namjoon did to me. I did notice a similarity between the two beatings. They were both the cause of hatred. They both hated me with all their heart. It seemed like all people do anymore is hate me.

I slowly and painfully went upstairs to my room clutching my side. I wiped the dried blood off my face and sat on my bed. I lifted my shirt slightly to survey the damage my father did to my side. The bruises on my side were blue and red and yellow and practically the rainbow. They were all boot shaped and it looked like I took a full time job being a door mat. I pulled my shirt off and tossed it in the dirty clothes bin. I changed my pants and instead put on a pair of comfortable basketball shorts. I laid down in my bed and thought about everything.

I smiled even though I was in pain because I finally didn't feel so bad. Sure I was in pain but I deserved this. I felt like I was finally starting to make things right to Jimin by making my self get beat up just as much. Once I closed my eyes I felt myself drifting asleep. The last thought in my head was simple ,'everything would be okay.'

:a/n Ayyee guys the cousins finally left and Yas. About 16 days to kcon and life is good lol. I hope you all missed me cause I missed you guys! And all this stuff going on about got7 is so stupid like I get what bambam said was wrong but instead of hating him just tell him what he said was wrong and move on. And about yugyeom's underage drinking I think that was probably the worst thing that happened because he is only 18 or so here in the U.S. and I know he can drink a little bit in the U.S. But he was fully drunk. But it's not like 18 year olds don't do that all the time here so it's just like whatever. And marks tattoo is old news guys people knew about that back in late 2015 lol. It's stupid how people are fighting eachother on this. So if anyone was wondering what side I'm on I'm on neither side lol. Have a nice day lovelies :)