Maybe I'm not Worthless (A Jimin and BTS fic)

One Last Time

Jimin pov~

I ran through the doors until I hit the field and kept running. I didn't know where I was going. I just wanted to run. Run away from my thoughts. Run away like I always have. I can't run away anymore. I just felt this need to run this way. I didn't know why. I ran through the park before I decided to give up.

I stopped to catch my breathe. I looked around and finally realized where I was. I saw the water below me and I remembered everything. Everything from that day came back to me. Everything from that moment rushed into my head and I fell to my knees. The bridge. It was this one. The water was the same, The weather was the same. The only difference was me.

I walked to the edge and peered down. Now when I looked at the water I didn't see any self hate, I didn't see this darkness, I didn't feel pity for myself or have thoughts of wanting everything to end. I didn't see that peace and calmness I saw that day. Instead when I looked at that water I saw love, sacrifice, fear. I didn't see my emotions in the water, instead I saw everyone else's emotions. The fear when I jumped, the way Namjoon and Jin were both willing to sacrifice themselves. The love they all felt that was still there when they saved me.

Who knew something so bad could turn out so good. This bridge was supposed to end my life, but instead it save me. I was lost in my thoughts when I heard footsteps. "JIMIN I DONT KNOW WHAT YOURE THINKING BUT WE CAN WORK THROUGH THIS!" Namjoon screamed. I shook my head as I gave a small grin. "It's okay joonie I'm not planning anything I'm just a little upset and this is where I ended up. It's a good suicide spot but it's also a good place to think," I said staring at the moon behind it. "What happened back there? You're dream's about to come true and you're not even there to enjoy it," Jin said standing next to me as the others followed.

I thought for a second ," I thought.... This was what I wanted.... But now that I realize how much our lives are going to change I don't want to do it," I said closing my eyes. "Jimin, tell us what you're feeling. If you keep using this morse code we'll never understand," Taehyung giggled. I sighed ," Our lives are pretty much restarting guys. High school is over, we're gonna leave to become famous. Block b is dropping out, got7 is graduating. Everyone's going to go different ways and I just.... Don't want it to happen. I love them all. They're my friends. I don't want to ever leave them. I'm just scared......" I muttered.

Jin rubbed my back to soothe me. "Nobody knows what the future holds, let's just cross that bridge when we come to it. If we sit and worry about tomorrow we'll never be able to enjoy today. For all we know some day we'll be famous and we'll be back here and reunite for some other reason. (Dat foreshadow doe) It's never goodbye Jimin it's just.... See you next time. Do you understand?" Jin asked. I nodded , "I understand. You're right. Our friendship can never end. At least not end like it did last time," I said looking at them. "That'll never happen again. Separating will only make us closer. You know how you hear stories about how friends can not see each other for years and then meet up and act like it's only been hours? Block b and got7 will always be there for us like we are for them," Namjoon smiled. I nodded but stayed quiet. "You know.... It's hard to believe how much has happened since the last time we were here. It's hard to think that I wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for you guys," I smiled. "Yeah but you would've never been at this bridge in the first place if it wasn't for us," Yoongi said going into another emo phase. I smiled, I loved Yoongi he was such a sweetheart.

"Why don't we go to our house and rest. It's been a long day. We have to start packing in the morning any ways so let's get some sleep. Jimin wanna stay over?" Jin asked politely. I nodded ," Yeah. Let's go guys." We all wrapped our arms around each other and started home.

:a/n Just three more chapters and then an epilogue fam. Then le sequel I'm still thinking about the storyline but prepare for Astro KNK and monsta x for it lol. It probably won't be as popular as this story is tho but oh well. Also I'm kind of upset because I really wanted to make this story yoonmin instead of jikook but I can't just break them up so its ugh rip.