Love me or Hate me a Demi and niall Fanfic Part 2

Chapter 2

Sorry it took me so long to write a new chapter.Ive been so busy with school that I haven't had much time to write but I'll be sure to write more during the holidays! I hope you guys will like this story!(: continue leaving me feedback, vote and tell me your opinions!

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I woke up this morning feeling light headed.My mom and dad didn't speak to me when I got home last night which wasn't surprising.I have nothing to say to my dad for what he did to my wrist.I hope when he sees it he feels hurt and ashamed for putting his hands on me.If he thinks that the only way I'm gonna "open up" is by hurting me more than I already am, he's so wrong.Im already hurting on the inside, I don't need to be hurting on the outside as well.I know I'm putting my family through hell right now but ganging up on me is not gonna make everything "okay".Maybe, I am going through depression.

Today is my day of staying home, in my comfy bed all day.No plans, no interruptions, just me and my bed.

"Demetria Devine lovato" my screamed outside of my door, "open this door"

I rolled my eyes and got up from my bed.I walked towards my door and unlocked it.She walked in with her arms crossed and I walked towards the end of my bed and sat down.

"Yes?" I said looking at her while playing my hair.

She looked at me with tears in her eyes and sighed.She walked towards my computer chair and sat down.I love my mom but seeing her cry breaks my heart.

"Demi,I love you so much and I would be lying if I said I didn't" she said wiping her eyes, " I can't stand seeing you like this.All a mother ever wants is for her kids to be happy and knowing your not is heartbreaking and I don't know what else to do"

I looked at her for a while then at my mirror."Is she always gonna make me cry in the morning?" I asked myself.

"I'm sorry for walking out yesterday but I just felt pressured into doing something I wasn't ready to do just yet and that was to tell you guys what happened two years ago"

"I completely understand." she said walking toward me.She sat down next to me, took my hand and placed my hair behind my ears." Your counsellor thinks it's best if you go to group counselling"

I looked at her then pulled my hand away.I shook my head and let out a little giggle.

" Demi"

"Didn't I just say I wasn't ready to open up? You say you understand but I don't think you do" I said standing up.

"I don't want you to be in your room,in your bed not doing anything provocative with your day" She said with a shaky voice.

"What else am I supposed to do,huh? dad forbid me to see Miley and Selena, Dallas moved back to Chicago" I said with tears rolling down my face," I have no one"

"Oh Demi please.I know your gonna find a way to see Miley and Selena and Dallas moved to Chicago because she didn't want Demetria to be around all this negative energy" She said getting up and walking to the door.She placed a paper on my desk and sighed, " I don't care what you say, you're going to this group counselling"

She walked out of my room and I felt some sort of anger rush through my veins.I went to my closet and threw all of my clothes around my room in frustration.I hate who i've become, i hate hurting the ones around me but I just can't take this anymore.

I took a deep breath and picked out something on the floor to wear.If i stay in this house any longer,I will hurt someone.I put my hair in a bun and went into the bathroom.I starred at myself in the mirror for a little while and looked to my right.I grabbed my dads razor and sat down on the toilet.'Why hurt the ones i love, when i could hurt myself' I thought.