Don't Forget To Smile (O'J Fan Fiction)

Chapter. 22

Hey guys! I knew it just need me to get started. And it's Halloween so I shoud be able to write more. Anyways, I'm just gonna get stuck in, here you go :)

*Holly*

I used to think that I knew Jessie. I used to think that I could read her. I used to think that I could work out what she's thinking just by her facial expressions. These past 3 weeks have proven me wrong. I had no idea what was going on in her head. She was so distant. She always replied when I or someone else spoke to her or asked her a question but I don't think she was truly aware of anything anyone said. When I tried to get her to tell Danny 3 days later she literally took a tantrum, screaming at me and crying. She hasn't talked to Danny in 2 weeks, ignoring his texts and calls. She has only talked to Tom and I. I was scared for her. Its been a fight to get her to eat everyday. A few bites is all she eats. Its only getting worse as she rarely comes out of the bedroom now. I can see her wasting away. I can see her skin only getting paler. I don't blame her, not at all. How could I? It wasn't her fault. What sort of friend would I be if I did? But it's hard for me to see my best friend so hurt, so broken. Just then she came out of the bedroom. Her clothes far to baggy for her now boney structure. Her eyes darkened from the heavy bags under them as her sleeping pattern has disappeared. I knew better than to say anything to her though. She didn't need me at her throat too.

"I'm going for a walk, I won't be long," she announced. This was the most she's spoken since Tom brought her home.

"Okay. Be careful yeah?" I asked. My small question brought a bag of fear to her eyes but she quickly blinked it away and nodded.

While she was away I decided to clean her bedroom. The plates of untouched food were beginning piling up. I changed the bed sheets, polished and took the plates to the kitchen. This only took me a short 10 minutes.

15 minutes later Jessie still hadn't returned. I began to worry. I looked out the window to look for any sign of her. Just as I was about to turn away I spied her at the end of the street. Slowly walking up with a bag in her hand. Soon she came in the door.

"Nice walk?" I asked. She simply shrugged.

"Buy anything nice?" I asked, gesturing to the bag.

"No," she replied bluntly before leaving the room.

Jess and I were being pulled apart. It's all the fault of that stupid, sick excuse of a man. I didn't like it. It want fair to me nor Jessie. Especially not Jessie. She didn't deserve it at all. I switched on the TV and browsed the guide for something to watch. There was nothing so I settled for the news when it started. I must have fell asleep for half an hour because I woke halfway through. I went to the kitchen to make a cup of tea, but I heard a smashing sound coming from the bathroom. My heart began to race. What had happened? I ran to the bathroom and flew open the door.

Jess was on the floor with her head between her knees. After giving her the once over and I discovered she wasn't harmed I exhaled the breath I didn't realise I was holding. After hearing my breath she looked up. Her eyes were puffy and her cheeks were stained with tears.

"The glass fell," she said, sounding broken.

I sat down opposite her, not speaking for a bit. Suddenly her breath hitched and she put her hand under her leg grabbing something. She started to cry harder as she slid the object across the floor. When it stopped spinning I realized what it was. Please don't let this be happening, please don't let this be happening. But from the state Jessie was in and the test on the floor I knew it was.

I stood up and walked over to her, picking up the test on the way. Sure enough the pink plus sign was clear to see. I sat beside her, hugging her. I let het cry. To be perfectly honest I didn't know what to say. I felt her pain. I couldn't feel good knowing that your not carrying the child that belongs to the love of your life. Instead it belongs to a disgrace  to society who caused you nothing but pain. I shed a few tears for her too. It's not nice seeing your best friend in this state. My heart broke for her.

After a while of sitting there with her, I decided that I should be being strong for her. I got up, helping her up with me. I hugged her before pulling away and wiping her tears.

"Babe, go to the shower. I'll ring us a Chinese, you need to eat," I suggested.

"Okay, I'll try," she choked.

This took me by shock a little. I think she was just tried of fighting. I ran her a bath, persuading her to relax a little and again she agreed. I left her to get in by herself. I had a phone call to make. I know that it may spark up some trouble, but in the long run it will be better.

I went to the living room and picked up my phone, dialing Danny's number. To my surprise he answered on the 3rd ring.

"Holly?" Danny asked, the hint of surprise in his voice was clouded by releif.

"No, God damn batman," I whispered sarcastically.

"Holly, where's Jessie? Is she okay? Why hasn't she been answering my calls? What-?" Danny panicked before I intervened.

"Danny, shut up and listen," I continued whispering. "Come home. She won't admit it to herself but she needs you. Alot." I felt my face form a painful grimace.

"Why?" He asked.

"Just come home Danny, please? For Jessie?" I begged in a low whisper.

"Yes. It's what she needs so of course I will. I'll be on the first flight home, I'll probably arrive at 4am," Danny reassured.

"Thanks Danny," I sighed.

"No problem," he assured 

"I gotta go, bye," I said.

"Bye," Danny replied.

After getting off the phone with Danny, I rang the Chinese like I said I would do. I simply ordered a vegetable curry, knowing I wasn't hungry and Jess probably wouldnt eat much. She came out of the bathroom and went into her room. I got 2 plates and drinks and fixed dinner. She came out after putting on pyjamas. We ate, Jess nearly finishing her plate and I took the plates to the kitchen. When I returned I seen that Jessie's eyes had filled with water, I pulled her into my lap.

"Sh, it's going to be okay," I promised her. As she fell asleep on my lap, while I waited for Danny to get here.

A/N: Hey guys. So 2nd chapter today. I've been planing this for a while. I hope you guys feel okay about it. I may or may not start writing the next one tonight. Again written on my phone, edited there too so I apologise for any mistakes. Thanks for reading. :) x