The Magician's Secret (boyxboy)

Chapter 15

Astor p.o.v.

I can feel Kai staring at me every once in a while as we drive. Every time I turn towards him, he looks away immediately. I can't tell what he's thinking in that marvelous head of his. I hope his other type of head is just as marvelous.

"You can ask me whatever you want precious," I tell him. After the bomb, my dad just dropped I can guess he has a lot of things going on in his head.

"Why aren't you angry," he asks me.

I smile as I glance over at him for a sec before looking back at the road. "I am mad," I tell him. "But not with my dad having a secret son or him having sex a couple months after my mom died. I'm okay with that. I've kept a couple secrets from him too." I've had a couple pregnancy scares growing up myself and I don't know if I wouldn't do the same.

"Why not," my mate questions.

"I know other sons would probably be pissed about their fathers having sex after their mom's died, but I didn't really know my mom. Sure my dad talked about her and stuff, but to me, it was more like he was talking about an old friend or something. I guess it might be because of the pack. Like ten percent of the pack is same-sex mates, so you kind of learn not to care about not having a mother or father. Hell, some kids have three parents and they still learn to love all of them," I explain to him.

Kai still looks confused as he looks at me. "But it's your mother."

I sigh as I think about it. "I love my mom and everything, but it's hard for me to hate my dad for getting out there even if it was a fling. My dad may seem like a strong and happy guy, but that's only on the outside. He's living one of werewolves' greatest fears, being alone. Even though he's one of the most social people in the pack, he's still alone every single night. He pretends like it doesn't effect him, but the whimpers I hear from his room tell me otherwise." I also feel kind of guilty for how he is. I've always felt like if it wasn't for me he would have probably gone out to meet someone when mom died.

"But I thought mateless werewolves were okay with being alone?"

"Most are. You see mates are kind of like puzzle pieces. Two pieces fit perfectly together, but only those two pieces. Mateless wolves, on the other hand, are different. Theirs is more like the puzzle was cut completely in half. The two pieces don't connect because they don't have the gaps. Usually, mateless wolves are okay since they don't feel like they're missing a part of them since there isn't a connection. But just because you don't find your mate doesn't mean you can't find love. Sometimes these wolves do find strong love, but after they lose them they feel a great emptiness. They want to feel love again, but they know they won't ever truly find it. My father went through that realization and is still fighting to live."

Kai stays quiet for a while after that. He seems to be thinking about something really deeply. "Then what are you mad about?"

"I'm mad that he lied about it to me. I should have had a right to know about my brother. I'm going to let him have it later for sure, but for now, I have to deal with saving my brother," I tell him. I feel something warm and soft touch my cheek before it completely disappears.

I turn and I see Kai trying to hide his face with his beanie. "What? I just thought it was sweet that you cared about your father so much," he grumbles. I can sense that he's really embarrassed for kissing my cheek. I can't help but grin at the sign of affection.

"Don't worry. I won't tell anybody you lost your first kiss to my cheeks," I tease.

I hear him groan and glare at me. I get a good view of his flushed face now. "Shut up and drive you incompetent fool."