Let Me Help You- Criminal Minds: Reid and Adam Jackson

Chapter 17: Insecurities

~~~That Night~~~

***Friday night***

R: Aggg. (He sighed) I need to tell you something.

A: Uhm, can I go first?

R: Okay? (He said rather skeptically)

A: First I need to you know that I love you.

R: And I love you.

A: But please don’t talk until I’m done, okay?

R: Okay.

Adam took Spencer’s hands in his and looked down, too afraid to look in Reid’s eyes. Reid didn’t force him.

A: (Deep breath) our relationship is the best thing that has ever happened to me but I can’t help but feel guilty. Spence I feel that this relationship is an unjust to you, you need to be happy. You need someone who can make you happy you need someone who has something going for them. It’s not right that I take that away from you. You’re a wonderful guy and I think you need to be with someone who is equally wonderful…Spencer this is difficult for me to do but I can’t allow you to tie yourself down to someone like me. You deserve so much more than me… (He said through sobs and sniffles)

R: Adam, (He gasped utterly shocked by what Adam said)

A: I get it, if you leave me. I wouldn’t blame you if you did.

R: You don’t get to tell me what I need! You have no right to make me do that! No one tells me who to date and who not to date! I can do whatever I want to! (He spat, really mad at Adam)

A: That’s not what I’m trying to do.!

R: No, what you’re trying to do is unfair. I know what I want and I want you, Adam, no one else. I don’t want some successful prick who thinks he’s better than me. I don’t want someone else. You’re not tying me down you’re not doing me an unjust because I love you. I love you more than you can imagine. I want you with all you troubles and pains and everything else that comes with you. You’re not a wonderful guy and I know it. Babe, you’re more than wonderful. You’re all that I need, you’re all that I want. I love you and I WON’T ALLOW you to leave me. I’d rather quit the BAU than to lose you.

A: No, you can’t leave your job for me!

R: Then don’t give me a reason to leave it because if we have to break up then I have to win you back and I won’t be able to do that while I’m working.

A: But you deserve…

R: I deserve you and you deserve me and not a lot of people do. I know we can get through anything and everything the world throws at us as long as we do it together.

A: Okay. (He smiled)

R: Okay. (He sighed)

A: It’s just Dr. Avery said that I should tell you how I’m feeling. All my insecurities and everything else and the only way I know is to say everything at once. So I hope you’re not mad at me.

R: Firstly, I’m not mad and secondly, Dr. Avery was right you need to talk to me about these things. Not only this but everything that you have an issue with, remember I’m a trained professional and I’m your boyfriend and I’d like to know when there are things that are bothering you. I would love to help you. I mean it.

A: Thank you.

R: It’s nothing.

A: No, thank you for being here for me, thank you for helping me through everything, thank you for being my boyfriend and thank you for loving me, more than I can love myself. Thank you…

R: Thank you for allowing me to care for you, thank you for letting me in, thank you for allowing me to love you.

They kissed but Adam pulled away.

R: What’s wrong?

A: You said that you have something to tell me?

R: Yeah that.

A: So?

R: Uh, so you know how we were suppose to leave next week Friday to Quantico?

A: Yeah?

R: Uh.

A: What happened?

R: … It’s not bad.

A: Then tell me.

R: Okay, uh. I’m needed back in Quantico on Wednesday meaning I have to leave Tuesday afternoon.

A: On Tuesday already?

R: Yeah.

A: Are you uhm- are you … leaving me?

R: No on the contrary, you’re coming with me. I mean if you want to.

A: Do you really mean it?

R: Yes. We were originally going together on Friday, so what’s so different about going on Tuesday?

A: I don’t know. It’s finally becoming a reality, is all.

R: Our reality.

A: Our life.

R: Our future.

A: I can’t wait.

R: Neither can I but we need to do one more thing before we leave.

A: And that is?

R: We need to do something for Jackson. I mean he’s been so nice to us that I just feel like doing something for him.

A: Something like?

R: I have an idea, but it’s big. So it’ll need a little planning and co-ordination but I think I can pull it off.

A: Are you going to tell me what this extraordinary plan of yours is?

R: Later, when I have everything in order.

A: I’ll find out.

R: I doubt it.

A: I have my ways.

R: Oh really?

A: Yeah.

R: You can try but I can guarantee you that you won’t get it.

A: Let’s see about that.

Adam stood up from he’s place next to Reid and sat down on his lap. Then he took Reid’s face in his hands and kissed him on his lips then he moved along Reid’s cheekbone until he reached his neck. Once there he sucked on Reid’s neck then he kissed and sucked him on his neck leaving a small little red mark on it. Then he stood up and pulled Reid towards their bedroom.

(and the rest is history)…