An- slightly different chapter, anorexic thinking I think is all xx
Phil's POV
Dan and I have started going to regular therapy sessions. At today's, we were looking at trust, and friendship. We each got given a survey to complete about our best friend.
Dan's POV
We had to fill out a survey about our best friends at the therapy that Phil and I go to.
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Name: Phil Lester
Age: 13
Most trusted person: Dan Howell
Dan is: My rock, my saviour, the person I couldn't live without. My happiness, my light when things get dark. My best friend. My lover. My other half. The person who saved my life.
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Name: Dan Howell
Age: 13
Most trusted person: Phil Lester
Phil is: My reason to live. My best friend. The love of my life. The person I could talk to about anything. The most amazing person to exist. The person who saved my life. My world.
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Phil's POV
I kept my promise. I told him I wouldn't do it again, and I haven't done. I would do anything for Dan. He tries so hard to get better so that I don't get hurt, and i would do the same for him. Dan is the reason I'm still alive.
Dan's POV
Eating. It hurt like hell. Putting all of those fattening calories into my body knowing that the pounds were piling on. What kind of gluttonous monster had I become, you could barely see my ribs anymore.
And yes, there are days when I skip meals, just for that calming sensation of emptiness, knowing that there would be nothing to make me even fatter.
But all it took was one look at Phil and to,see the hurt in his eyes, and I would feel too guilty to refuse when he offers me food.
So I choke it down, one mouthful at a time, because I don't care what I look like as long as Phil is happy. No extra small jumper can make me feel okay if he is disappointed and hurt because of me.
So somehow, I get through, and I think I'm starting to get better. And it's all because of Phil.
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Years, Life
FanfictieDan and Phil were always best friends, until one day everything changes... Dan is taken away. Will they stay together, or will they be torn apart forever? Trigger warnings: self harm, child abuse, homophobia, suicide, suicidal thoughts, anorexia, de...
