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couldn't sleep again. i mean who would want to sleep after being intoxicated and high at a party like that, huh?
i'm such a lowlife it hurts. taehyung won that bet and now i owe him a couple blunts. the only reason why those guys even came up to me was because they recognized me as the anorexic girl at school.
that made me feel like i was shit. only being noticed because you have a disorder feels worse than bugs crawling all over you.
taehyung couldn't be blamed though. he let me enjoy myself for once in such a long time.
it hurts. popping pills, smoking expensive cigars, drinking cheap beers and vintage wine hurt. it hurt me to climb over that window with taehyung because i couldn't even walk straight.
taehyung helped me over like a...
a gentleman or some shit. what am i even saying?!
a gentleman?
i now see a gentleman as a person who carries me home because i'm too drunk to go by myself.
i would like to thank you for giving me such a low view on the world. on what manners and behavior is supposed to look like.
no. what you gave me was a low perspective on dreams and a future to look forward to.
so, thank you mom.
for ruining my life.
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ESTÁS LEYENDO
♤ house of spades ♤
Random*tw* depression, anxiety, mentions of self-harm, mentions of anorexia, panic attacks. kth, ksj, pjm, jjk, myg, jhs, knj lowercase intended please don't look over this and read it. part one of the house of cards series. #wattys2016
