Mystery Adventures

To whom it may concern,

To whom it may concern,

I am a burden to everyone. I thought I am strong, but in just one blow  I'm on my knees.

I've never tried to stand up on my own, I always depend on someone. The last time I tried, I dragged everybody down.

If ever someone saw me, or take me in. Please don't. I carry a lot of misfortunes and recklessness and carelessness. I've dragged too many things too far, my mess is all over the place. People gave up on me, and will give up. I'm that person that is too hard to be with.

You may try, but you won't like it. You can say you will try, or you can stay, but in the end, I'll end up hurting you, and you leaving me. So please don't take me in. Better to stay away now.

I tried to be strong, I tried not to cry, I tried to just take everything in, but it always explode out uncontrollably.

This is my stinky story that goes nowhere. I fall down, then tried to stand up just to fall down again. I keep bothering people, messing them up. I tried to be their person but I end up being selfish self centered humanoid. 

When I look at myself in the mirror, I don't know who I see, what I see.

Is that me?

Who is me?

I asked myself every time, what kind of person I am? I know what and who I wanted to be but it just doesn't work out. Whenever I'm almost there, I go back to square one. And I don't want you to be drowned with me, I want you to survive.

I'm helpless,

I pray but I think I'm helpless.

but I'm not.

I just need to feel that I'm not.

To whom it may concern,

I just wanted you to know that I tried, I really do. I just don't know what happened. I, I just don't know.

It was all my fault, it was all on me. All the blames should go on me.

I don't want you to concern yourself because of me. So you should leave. Now,

Go and live your life. You won't feel the sadness when I'm gone.

Be happy. Please.

Go.

Live, but for the last time, please pray for me.

I love you;

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