And I agree to that, because you happen to me very unexpectedly. Out of nowhere, you came.
But to love you was even better. Even though I'm only at the back of the room because a lot of girls like you too, I know.
Who won't?
You're a ray of sunshine to everyone, you brought that smile of yours that can lit up even the most darkest corner in the room, you make everything sweet even the most bitter thing in the world, you make me feel better even when the universe throws all its shittiness on me. You make me smile even with the littlest ways of yours. You make me happy even the the world is trying to make me a mad like the hatter. You make me believe in the butterflies even if there wasn't. You make me write all these ball of cheese lines and make me smile like there'd be no next time.
You make me love, even though it was only me.
I know a lot of girls, have their eyes on you, and they're way, way, way, miles and miles and miles away better and beautiful than I am. I have nothing to be special like them. I'm just simple me, a ball of awkwardness, a girl who tried to fit in but never did. I am my own character and its not really much of a strength to make you notice me.
I like you, I really do, I genuinely, sincerely, truly, I do. But they like you too, so I just chose to sit here at the corner. Just simply caring for you and look out for you.
There hasn't been much other guys or "crushes" that made me feel this way. Or to be exact, no one made me feel this way. Specifically, specially this way. A guy that made me look at life so positively, made me feel it's okay if I'm the only one in love. Even without you knowing it.
I know I stand no chance at all, but I was grateful, to love you, to have loved you. I didn't mind the pain at all, seeing you happy with her. She is a friend same as you are to me. And I know you'd be good to each other. I know it'll hurt to say I'm happy for you, for the both of you. I know it'll hurt still standing beside you too, staying in the same room with you too. I know it hurts smiling in front of you. It hurts saying you guys looks so good together. It hurts teasing both of you. It hurts. And I know my love comes along with it. And I'm gladly to be in pain.
Even so, a part of me still hopes you see me, even behind all of these crowds, all of the other pretty things around you. All of these love you get.
If not, then I'm going to be happy and move on with my life. Because to love you, is not a misadventure, neither an experience but a memory that I'll cherish.
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