Walking On Broken Glass

Chapter Nine

As we crossed the border, I felt my stomach lurch. It was odd knowing I was going back to a place I didn't want to be. I knew we would end up in the one place I did not want to be. It scared me more then anything else. I did not want to see my mother or her loser husband.

All I knew was I was safe as long as I stayed near the guys. Josh made it known that I was safe. Ivy was always at my side or I was with someone. I wasn't allowed anywhere alone. There was too much of a risk now that we were in the states. It was too easy for my mother and her drunkard husband to get me.

I was laying on the bus when Josh walked on. It was one of the few nights I opted to miss the show. I just wanted to try and relax without hearing screams all night. Sure I loved to see them on stage, but I needed a break. Bennie and Ivy took over the couch with me and weren't going to move.

"Really? Both of you are gonna claim her?" Josh laughed as he tried to move them both.

"They wanted to keep me company." I smiled as he got Bennie to move. She gave him a dirty glare then went to find his bunk.

"How was it?" I asked as I snuggled up to him.

"It was good. Great first show of the US tour." He smiled.

"How'd the crowd react to you?" I grabbed my water and smiled as he started to tell me all about how they knew some of the songs and show amazing it was it hear them sing along.

We were lost in our own world when everyone came on the bus. I let out a groan as David laid across Josh and I to get out attention. As if we had no idea they had all walked on to the bus.

"So who's up for a party?" He smiled.

"I'm gonna crash." I laughed as I shoved him and he hit the floor.

"Oh come on!!! It's only 12!" He hollered as I walked off.

I awoke the next morning and sighed. I hated the idea of being back in the states. I climbed out and found an empty bus. No note, no nothing. I was a little worried as I walked out and took notice of where we were, New York. They were playing a small club in the Bronx. I looked around the street and saw no one was around. I hopped off and went to see Ivy. As I took her out I heard voices coming. I froze until I recognized the voices. I let out a breath as Josh and Pierre walked up.

"Where'd you go?" I asked as they walked up to me.

"We had an interview." Pierre laughed as he gave me a hug.

"Yea you know how people are. They have to know all of our secrets." Josh laughed as he took a turn hugging me.

"I was just about to take the dogs out." I smiled.

"Already done." Pierre laughed as they lead me down the street for something to eat.

We made small talk as we walked. Josh seemed happy to be around me. He made a point to hold my hand and keep me close. It was hard to tell if it was because he cared or he was being protective. It wasn't that I didn't mind how caring he was, but I would rather know where we stood.

It was something that weighted heavy on my mind as I thought about it. I wanted to know that it was just him and I. No one else. I knew how guys in bands acted. I knew how Pierre was before he met Lachelle. He was a player and he wasn't ashamed of it. I didn't want to be one of those girls. One who thought she was the only one, but find out her so called boyfriend had been seen out with some other chick at a club. I wasn't going to go down that road. Not ever. So I made the choice to have a talk with him later that night after the show. I just needed to make sure I wasn't going to get hurt.

As I watched the show, I took notice of a few girls that were freaking out over both bands. I watched as one of them kept trying to get Josh's attention. I couldn't help the anger that was welling up. It was odd thinking about some other girl vying for his affection. I just glared at the girl as she made goo goo eyes at him.

I left the venue and headed to the bus. I needed to relax and not think about the girl who was trying to get at Josh. I went to my bunk and smiled as I reached into my pillow and pulled out a bottle. I opened it and took two of the blue pills. As I felt them slide down my throat, I let out a sigh. I felt like I needed the pills to make me feel better. I found out one of the roadies had a stash of Oxys and I could buy them off him if I needed them. I had to find a way to cope with being in the states.

I sat in the back of the bus with the dogs when Josh walked on. I was in a haze as he sat next to me. I felt fuzzy and I couldn't stay awake.

"Tay....are you ok?" I heard Josh ask as he sat down.

"I'm fine. Just tired." I lied as I rested my head on his shoulder. I felt myself slip off to a dreamless sleep. Something I had been hoping for.

Josh's POV:

I looked for Pierre the next day. I needed to talk to him about Taylin. Something wasn't right. She seemed off. I had the thought that maybe she was on something, but I didn't want to jump the gun. I wanted to make sure before I said something out loud. As I walked around the venue I thought about how hard it had to be her. Being on tour with us, hiding from her family and not really being able to do anything.

I ran into Pierre on the stage, getting ready for sound check. I took a deep breath before I started talking. I didn't want to piss him off.

"Hey!" I shouted as he nodded to Brent.

"What's up?" He said as he jumped down.

"Can we talk?" I felt odd asking him that. It was like I was about to ask his permission for something.

"What's up?" He laughed as we left the venue.

"It's Tay. I think something's up. She was really out of it last night and I'm wondering if she's doing something." I sighed.

"Like what? Drugs?" He looked pissed at me.

"I didn't say that. I just said I wonder if she's not doing something. Maybe she's drinking a lot." I offered.

"She has been acting kind of funny. She's hanging with the roadies a lot." He said as he sat on a bench.

"I thought it was just her being annoyed with having to keep a low profile. I'm getting worried." I felt like shit talking about her behind her back, but I had to find out what was going.

"I have to agree, but I think she's getting shit from the roadies. If they're giving her something, I'm kicking their ass. We need to make sure that she doesn't have anything." He sighed.

"How?" I asked, unsure of what Pierre had in mind.

"Take her out for a few hours. I'll look around and see what I can find. It's the only way to find out. She'll lie to cover herself." He explained.

"So I have to get her out for a few hours while you snoop?" I laughed.

"Yea." He gave a laugh.

"Um when?" I asked as I looked at my phone.

"Tomorrow." He let out a heavy sigh.

The fact we had to resort to snooping to make sure Taylin was ok made me feel horrible. I knew it was for the best, but I also knew how horrible this would make me feel. I hated the idea of being sneaky, but I wanted her to be alright.

So here it is! Drama and more drama! Please let me know if you like it!

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