The Bully in Love ( Larry Stylinson Jock! Louis Nerd! Harry )

Chapter 11.

*Harrys POV*

I couldnt explain it. I couldnt explain the way I felt. 

Broken.

And

Numb.

I felt like if Louis didnt want me then who would? Who would want me? I wasnt proud of what I did last night.. I am discusted by myself, Just how Louis is. Im finally seeing what he is seeing, I am seeing what he saw 3 years ago.

A fag.

A "Worthless peice of shit'.

I just Cant beleive it took me this long to see it.. I really cant. I looked in the mirror last night and saw what he saw,Finally.... I didnt wanna think about Louis.. I just wanted to go to school without Louis' Name calling or beatings, I just wanted one day. No words can explain how bad i want him to be mine but then that beings me back to how he would never want me.. He said it himself..  He was never my true friend. That was the main reason for what i did last night.

I commited so much time to him. I loved him so much and that is what i get in return. To know that i was nothing to him... Not even a friend. It was hard to forget for even a second.

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I sat down, a soon sighing Louis sitting by my side. I didnt look up, I just looked at my lap biting my lip and tugging on my sleeves.. Why was i so nervous? 

" You okay?" He whispered.

Uh what? Why would you care Louis?

" Yeah, not like you care right?" I muttered, My voice hoarse.

"Sorry, bipolar freak." He said louder, People hearing and laughing.

" I am not bipolar." I said stern. I was not, Why did he even try? I wasnt going to let him get to me... Not today.

" Please, last night you tried to kiss me! Now your all shitty.." 

I stood up, i would not take this, I did not kiss him!

" I didnt kiss you and you know it. You Kissed me, I know what your doing.. Dont want your friends to know you kissed some freak like me right? Why would even wanna lay a finger on me? Gonna catch my 'gaynes'? I dont even get you. I really dont, That someone could be THAT selfish an only care about themselves. Why dont you think about other people for once? Why dont you think about how I feel? Think about it." I said, not paying attention to the stares from other students... Only looking in Louis' eyes.

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THe rest of the day dragged on.. Louis didnt hit me. I was suprised...