• Human •

• Accepting Rough Love •

Fresh wounds still reek of your kisses.

Sunlight still never seen in the same breath as the last.

None of this even makes sense to me,

You spent years of my life, dragging me around and for what?

You leave me the second you find someone who can hold your heart maybe

Just a little softer than I ever could.

Though when I was with you I thought I was more gentle than the flutter of a butterflies wing.

But I was a tsunami in your eyes.

Drunken nights thinking of words you've said,

I'm annoying,

Loud and obnoxious.

I wanted to be loud enough to shout love into my own fears.

Sorry I was pushy.

What is love?

Does it push and shove?

Does it confuse you?

Make you wanna die..?

Or was that just one person, one mindless person making me feel small.

Was it you?

Who made my whole body crawl?

I've made a mistake, accepting rough love.

Accepting something less than what I've always deserved.

Always accepting the lie.

You were a liar.

Said you were drunk because of me but you were completely sober,

Warm in your own bed without a shiver for my feelings.

I have been wasting my precious poetry on you.

And it's funny.

Because I'm still doing it.