Prometheus

Loving you

"I'm leaving."
I stared at him blankly. He can't be going? He can't drop this shit storm on me and leave, can he? "I've become to personally involved with the mission." He stated flatly. The little pieces of myself that I had managed to glue back together shattered again. The pain in my chest building stronger the more he spoke.  It was early morning and the sun was just rising. It painted the sky vibrant colours. Dora had once said that it looked like Gods paint pallet. She was right. Today it lacked the beauty of usual held, as it created the perfect back drop to the pain that was rattling around inside my chest. It felt like a bowling ball.
I didn't say anything. He couldn't even look me in the eye. "Someone Will fly out to replace me as soon as possible until then just sit tight."
Your not serious? After everything your just gonna walk away? All manners of words were rolling around my head. But still I remained silent. I stood motionless on the porch. If I hadn't heard the door open he would have left without so much as a goodbye.  I knew this was my only chance. If I watched him get in that car, that was it.
"Wait." My voice sounded stronger than I felt. But he kept going. I ran off the porch, the morning air was cold against my exposed skin. "Wait." I repeated grabbing him by the wrist and spinning him around. I saw the recollection in his eyes as I did so. He thought about our first night here too. "Please don't go." I whispered, stepping closer to him. "I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. Please don't go. I didn't mean it. I need you. We need you. My life is a fucked up mess but your all I need to get me through this." I stared into those familiar green eyes but I didn't recognise the hard wall I was met with. I gentle sob racked my body. I couldn't lose him. In the short time I had known him he had won my heart and I had never had the guts to tell him. I couldn't manage without him. Suddenly it clicked inside me, as I stared into his green eyes, I felt it deep in my chest. I love this boy. I love him. Slowly I lifted a single hand to his cheek, I stole myself knowing that if I didn't tell him then I would regret it for the rest of my life- however long that is. "I love you." I whispered as tears slid down my face in a steady stream. I stood up on my tiptoes and kissed him.  I kissed him like my life depended on it. If he left I don't think I would ever be the same. I've lost to much. He kissed me back, when we pull away I search his face desperately looking to see that I changed his my mind.  "I'll never forget you." He whispers into my lips before turning to leave. He walks Into the barn and pulls away a few minutes later. I stay routed to the spot. As I watch him pull away I feel myself collapse as an inhuman wail escapes my lips. Heavy sobs racking my body as I clutch my broken heart.  "You said you would never go." I said to myself.