And Then There Were Two

Chapter Nineteen - Hello Sister

I know what you're thinking, what a hoebag.

Truthfully I could care less about  you think of me, but we didn't do the dirty.

We were so close to doing it but Alec stopped. He told me he couldn't do this and I started to cry. I didn't want to but I had this stupid thought, that maybe if I had sex with somebody I wouldn't feel like such a victim.

I know it's stupid. I just thought if I could re-lose my virginity willingly, I'd feel better about myself. But after getting naked and having Alec on top of me, I realized how stupid I was being.

I thought back on our conversation.

"Skai, I can't do this." He said sitting next to me. "And I know you don't want to either? Why are you forcing yourself."

"I feel worthless Alec," I sobbed. "I had sex with somebody I didn't like and I have to live with that for the rest of my life."

"Rape isn't sex Skai," he hugged me. "You didn't have a choice, it was against your will. That's why he's locked up behind bars."

"But I could've tried hard to fight him off," I argued. "I gave up instead of fighting and my body liked it Alec. I liked it."

I can remember the look on Josh's face when I accidentally moaned. I didn't mean to like it.

'You like it don't you.' He said to me. Then he started going faster and I...

My body shook violently as I cried.

"Skai listen to me," he grabbed my face to make sure I was looking at him. "You have no control of how your body reacted. Sex is supposed to feel good, unfortunately you didn't have the right partner. You will the next time you're ready. Secondly, you are not worthless; you are priceless. I am extremely honored to have met a girl like you. You're an amazing girl Skai and that's why I admire you. You're strong and beautiful."

"So much for trying to move on with my life." I sighed.

"Skai it hasn't even been a year yet." He argued.

"Thanks Alec." I said softly.

"Don't mention it," he smiled. "Get dressed, I think Scarlet is back."

After we got dressed we headed down to the kitchen where Scarlet was unpacking bags. She smiled when she saw and told us about her trip.

Since a lot of people didn't know Gabby existed, they bought her story about being new in town with a young baby and a husband.

I left soon after because I needed to talk to Skylar about what I did. As soon as I got home and into my room, I dialed her number and she picked up.

"Hello sister." I rolled my eyes at her imitation of the Salvatore brothers from the Vampire Diaries.

"Where are you?"

"I'm right here." She said as she stepped into my room. I hung up and she closed my door and say next to me on my bed.

"My twin senses told me that you wanted to talk." I rolled my eyes again.

"Okay," I said. " I have something to tell you, but you can't tell anyone."

"I won't." I promised.

"I almost sex with Alec." I said.

"Get out!" She shouted.

"Ssshhh."

"Sorry but I was not expecting that." She said. "Oh my Gosh, why almost?"

"He didn't want to." I replied.

"What guy turns down sex?" She asked.

"I didn't want to honestly," I confessed. "I thought I wanted to have sex with someone I actually like so I'd feel better, but it seemed like a horrible idea after."

"Skai, I love you but that was a stupid thought." She said. "Having sex again you won't erase what happened. Sex is supposed to be with someone you love and care about. I know you want the pain to go away, but it won't this way. I'll help you through it. I can't possibly imagine what you're going through but I'll be there every step of the way helping you get better."

Just what I needed to hear.

"Thanks so much Sky." I said hugging her.

"It's no problem sis," she smiled hugging me back. "Wanna know a secret?"

"You're always telling me secrets." I giggled.

"Secrets keep us close." She smiled and I nodded. "Anyways. I'm still a virgin."

"Get out!" I mimicked her.

"Ssshh." She shushed me. I laughed.

"Are you serious?" I asked after sobering up.

"Yes, I'm saving myself for someone who actually loves me." She smiled.

"Awww, that's good Sky." I said.

"I know," she replied. " I wish you had the choice to do that."

"I did with Alec." I countered.

"Skai, that's not the same and you know that. That bastard took your virginity and that's precious. And that stupid bitch knew about it. They makes me so mad. How are you happy Skai? How do you do it?"

"When you tell yourself it doesn't bother you, you start to believe it." I smiled.

"You're so strong Skai," she grinned. "And I admire you for that. You an Scarlet are my inspiration."

"Thanks Sky."

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This chapter sucked so bad. I cringed reading it over. Unfortunately, I don't think I can re-write it.

Bear with me please 🤗