L O S T .|| ✔ //MxM

T H I R T Y - E I G H T

The smell of sex is heavy in the air as feelings are rekindled and lost.

Each to his own is trying to either hold on to this memory or sear it out of their brain. Me, regret is drowning me in her waters.

I know I shouldn't have done this with Amario, especially since I wasn't ready to reciprocate any form of his love. But I hadn't gotten laid in months and do not like to jack off to fantasies.

But still I shouldn't have let it happen.

I open my mouth to apologise but his hand gesture stops me before I can. A single tear running down his cheeks.

I try to string words together and give to him but he stops me again.

"I know." His voice is starchy as he confirms my unspoken words.

"But can I just have this moment?"

I open and shut my mouth three times like a fish but end up with nothing to counter. So he moves towards me and moulds his body to mine in a hug.

We stay like that for exactly three minutes. After which he picks up his clothes and leaves.

The true feeling of loneliness creeps around me as for the first time in a while it dawned on me.

That loneliness knows me by the name.