Healer

Year one without him

(Taylor in MM)

It was just the beginning of hell! After His death shit got pretty hectic. Since i had no parent nor guardian, i was put in a group home. In the beginning it was tough closing my eyes without seeing Him. I cried all day and night. Sometimes, i do still cry myself to sleep but not as much.

Anyways, i had been laying in my bed thinking about Him. I couldn't say his name without crying or getting really mad. I missed him like crazy, along with my mother. I miss her sweet comments, her jokes, her big warm hugs, and her beautiful face. I didn't really even care for Demarcus he is the reason my mommy and the love of my life are gone. Now I'm a fourteen year old girl with nobody to call my own. All I ever wanted was to be with the person I fell madly in love with, but my jealous brother ruined everything!

Ever since I watched them bury Giovanni my temper has been out of control. I turned into a cold hearted bitch over night. I don't really care for much now. I dropped out of school, whenever new couples come I lock myself in my room, and I'm on the verge of getting thrown out.

The door opened and my room mate Taylor walked in with a frown, "Sup Bitch," she said while flopping on my bed.

"What's wrong hoe?" I replied while laying back.

Taylor's been in this place since she was like five. She told me how her mom was a junkie and her dad would rape her, he'd even let his friends get a turn. I was pissed when I heard her story because she was just an innocent child and they completely ruined her life. Oddly, when I told her my story she cried. She cried Hard! I didn't understand why her life seems way sadder than mine, but she always says; "you only find the love of your life once in a lifetime and you watched yours die."

"Mrs.Bitchface is thinking about kicking some girls out, I know I'm one of em I've been here since I was five I'm fourteen now," she sighed.

"Fuck Her! I think we should leave anyways." I said with a full attitude.

"True but we have no where to go, no money, and ion think I'm ready to sleep on a park bench." she sighed.

She was Right! We didn't have anywhere to go and we surely don't have any money! I wanted to cry, the only person that could ever help me is dead. My eyes got watery just thinking about the day we made a month...

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"Baby be careful before you hurt yourself!" Giovanni yelled as I ran to the swing.

"Hurry up and come push me Lemont!" I giggled when he glared at me for saying his middle name.

"Bae stop calling me by my middle name!" he warned me and I just pouted at how mean he was being.

"I'm sorry," I looked up at him with sad eyes and he got down on his knees.

"No don't make that face baby its ok," he kissed my lips and rubbed my thigh.

"Can you believe we made a month today?" I said with a big cool aid smile.

He chuckled, "yeah , I can believe it since you gone be stuck with me for the rest of your life."

I giggled when he attacked my face with kisses, "Why did you pick me? I mean they have girls prettier than me that's your age," I said with a bit of a sad face just thinking of him leaving me hurts.

He looked me in my eyes grabbing my hands, "Ion want them hoes! I want my Leilani," he gave me a stank face making me laugh.

"Proof please," I smiled.