Healer

Bet that pt. 2

Taylor,

I never noticed how far these shortcuts felt until I had to walk them half nude. I was completely ashamed! Why do I always fall for him harder every time? I really do need to stay away from him, but how?

  How can I stay away from the main person that has my heart?

Yes he does have my heart, as much as I don't want it to be it is. I don't want to be hurt but look where that has gotten me. I'm so focused on Leilani and her problems, I never really sit back to think about my own. 

  It seems like every time I have a inch of happiness something always happens.

The closer I was to the house, the more I started to worry. What if he catches me like this? What if he finds out about Denver?

  Plenty of the torturous thoughts piled in my head as I continued to walk. This is freaking sickening! I wanted to slap the hell out of myself just for being me.

   While I was mentally beating myself up my phone began to ring. When I looked at the caller I sighed.

   Shit!

"Look ma I'm sorry for saying what I said but a nigga just want you to himself but you act like that little pretty nigga is all you need."
The sound of his voice made me tremble as usual, I don't understand why Denver has this affect on me.

  "I don't want to talk to you Denver." Lies.

"Prove it."

I looked at the phone debating on if I should talk or hang up. I already know the consequence of replying but I just can't help the fact that I love him.

"Bye Denver." I say before hanging up.

I know that I don't deserve Jeremy but he is what I need, while Denver is what I want. There is nothing else for me to do but ignore my wants in order for me to be happy, Right?

   After almost half an hour I had finally made it to Jeremy's house slowly sneaking in the back.

When I walked in it was dead silent, was this good or bad? Hell whatever it was I wasn't going to try to figure it out.

    I quickly made my way to the shower immediately getting in. Lord knows how dirty I felt. I was scrubbing so hard it started burning when the water would touch my skin. Hopefully I can get all of this filth off of me.

Not even twenty minutes went by and I heard a creaking sound come from the bedroom door. Is he home?

   I peaked my head out of the shower just to make sure he wasn't trying to scare me. He knew I was already scared when I'm alone.

Turning off the water I slowly stepped out wrapping a towel around my body. I won't lie I am a little scared, you never know who could be walking in this house.

  I walked around the room holding onto my towel as tight as possible. As much as I wanted to say fuck it and call the police, I chose to continue looking. Within the next five minutes I realized that no one was in the room.

Probably was hearing things as usual.

  I shrugged while walking to the closet before my phone vibrated.

Please let this be Jeremy!

Daddy D 😍💦
I know you still love me either way it goes Tay, you already know you mine for life. &' like the new contact name 😏

I rolled my eyes with a slight chuckle.

Me👑
Who said I love you &' it could use some tampering.