Healer

Year Three Without Him

(Leilani in MM)

Today made three years without having Giovanni and my mom. I still miss them like crazy. Taylor and I have been living in Giovanni's house and I won't lie it hurts like hell just to look at the entrance. All the memories replay in my head, our pictures all over the room, and his scent everywhere. Taylor fell in love with the house as soon as she laid eyes on it and cried when I told her all the storied of what went down in this house.

I was laying in Giovanni's bed with the lights and TV off. I remembered on the night he died he promised we were going to come back home and cuddle to SpongeBob. I couldn't even turn on the TV without thinking about that. I couldn't even soak in the tub without imagining Giovanni was there. I huffed.

"Life sucks without you Giovanni "

I heard the door slowly open and I knew it was Taylor trying to make me eat again.

"Hey bitch " she said while laying across the bed.

"Sup?"

"Its kind of dull in here don't you think?" she asked.

"I guess."

She sat up, "you know what we should do?"

"I don't want to go anywhere Taylor!"

"I didn't say go anywhere" she pulled out a big bottle of 'Jack' , "Why leave if the party is here?" she chuckled while passing me the bottle.

I smirked before taking it to the head I started coughing when I felt my chest start burning.

"Hey! I still haven't seen your tattoo" she said while i passed her the bottle back.

"Oh."

"Let me see!"

I rolled my eyes lifting the end of my Calvin Klein bra just enough for her to see my tattoo.

"GLJ? "

"Giovanni Lemont James"

She nodded her head, "you know we've been here for a year and I haven't seen a single picture of y'all "

I shrugged and showed her the first ever pic we took, I was on his back kissing his forehead and he had a big bright smile on his face, "it was the day he asked me to be his 'Queen' it was one of the best moments I've had with him since the day I met him"

She smiled, "y'all looked so perfect together"

I laughed a bit, "that's what a lot of his 'home boys' said before they knew we were four years apart"

"Wow y'all look the same age on this picture" she said with a raised eyebrow.

"I was Eleven to his fifteen" she made a shocked facial expression.

"how did y'all meet?" she asked getting comfortable with her head on my stomach.

I smirked,

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It was a hot day and I wasn't really feeling the whole school thing today but I still got up anyways.

I put on a white shirt, some burgundy pants, and some white vans. I combed my hair out, put on some lip gloss, and put some mascara on.

My mom walked in the room with a smile, "Look who is up on her own on time might I add" she joked.

"Yeah, yeah. I honestly didn't want to go" I said.