An Angel in Disguise//Phan

Chapter 11

Phil's p.o.v

"Stupid"

"Worthless"

"Ugly faggot"

The insults come at me like a storm, breaking me down little by little. Jack and a bunch of other people surround me.

"Why are you so fat Phil?" A random teacher laughs.

"How did I ever love you? Your disgusting," my mum says, emerging from the crowd.

"Stupid, weak, piece of shit," my dad says walking up to me. He punches me in the face and pushes me into the ground.

Then Jack walks up. He stomps on my ankle, twisting it. I let out a cry of pain and the whole crowd of people laughs at me.

"Why would Dan ever love you? It was all a joke. He doesn't actually care about you, you just pull him down. Why would he love a you?" Jacks sneers.

"Dan does love me!" I say, tears welling in my eyes. Jack just chuckles and back up into the crowd. Dan emerges from the crowd, looking terrified. His eyes land on me and his expression softens, he looks at me with concern.

I jump to my feet, despite the pain in my ankle, and engulf him in a hug. He hug back for a second, before pulling back and looking into my eyes. His loving, concerned expression turns into an evil smirk as he throws me back into the floor.

"D-Dan?" I say through my sobs.

"I never loved you. Jack was right it was all a joke. You really think I actually care about you?" He lets out a laugh as does everyone else.

"B-but Dan, w-why w-would you d-do this to m-me?" I stutter, still sobbing.

"Because it was funny to see you thinking I actually loved you. It was funny to see how you thought I actually cared about you," Dan smirk.

Then he pulls something out of his jacket. A gun. He throws it in the ground and it slides towards me.

"Why don't you just kill yourself Phil? No one cares about you," Dan says gesturing to the gun. The whole crowd starts laughing and telling me to shoot myself.

"Just kill yourself"

"It's not like anyone would miss you"

"Just do it"

"Kill yourself already!"

"No one cares about you"

"Go ahead and kill yourself you worthless fag!"

My hands start shaking and I start hyperventilating. Everyone keeps saying 'kill yourself'. Soon it turns into a chant.

I reach for the gun shakily. I look at Dan whose smile widens as I pick up the gun. I hold it to my head. Everyone wants me to so I might as well. I pull down on the trigger.

Beep

I jump at the sound of my alarm, signaling another day. Oh good, it was just a nightmare. Although most of it probably is true. I'm shaking and sweating but I climb out of bed and try not to let the dream affect me so much.

I start my morning routine, getting dressed, doing my hair, etc. I look in the mirror as I brush my teeth. Gosh, I am really fat. Maybe if I just don't eat I won't be so fat. I don't deserve to eat anyway.

I walk out the front door. I'm about fifteen minutes early. Oh well I'll just wait for Dan at the gate.

I arrive at the school gates. It's almost completely empty. There's an eery silence. I lean on the wall, waiting for Dan.