The Laughing Touch (Jimmy Fallon Fanfic)

Chapter 35

I've felt like this for awhile now.. During my surprise birthday party, it felt like the beginning of our relationship again. Don't get me wrong, I love Jimmy to death. Amazing and most loving boyfriend I've ever had, but I just don't feel like we're the same again.. We wake up together, eat together, get ready together, go to work most days together.. Come home together and do it all over again the next day and the next. The only thing I like about living together is the fact that I'm not alone all day..

We both need our space. We both need time alone and work doesn't really count as that.. I knew I shouldn't have said yes so soon to moving in months ago. I wish I had waited until now. I felt rushed but not rushed enough to stop and question everything.

I don't expect this to go all that well.. But it's worth saying something. Maybe Jimmy feels the same way or has a different solution to all this.

"I have something to say.." I sit on the coffee table, between Jimmy's feet as he watches a game.

"Yeah, what's up, babe?" Why does he make everything so hard.. His puppy dog eyes. Fluffy bed head. Scruffy face. T-shirt and gym shorts.

I hold onto his slim feet and rub the tops. "I wanna move out.." I hold my breath as I watch his face change.

"But why?"

"Because if we're dating, I want the excitement to stay.. We work in the same building. Have lunch almost everyday together. We leave and come home together, on top of that.." I pause. "We're together all day. When you hug me or kiss me, it's just there.. I don't get butterflies or feel special like I did.. Living together kinda made it go away, babe.."

"But-"

I fling my body onto his. Straddling his lap and holding his face in my hands. "We're not breaking up! I love you so fucking much, James Thomas. That's why I feel living separate again will keep us together. For longer."

"Okay.." His pecs show deep through his shirt from a deep breath. "I want us together and I want you happy. If going back to what we were will make you feel better about us. Fine, lets do it." His fingers dance on my thighs.

"But that's not what you want.."

"Says who?"

I glare at him for being snarky with me. Usually I don't mind when he has attitude but right now I'm annoyed with it. "Your face, babe!"

"Don't get mad and yell at me! I didn't think of this stupid idea, Spencer!" His necks turning red. He's getting mad.

"Then don't get snarky with me! And give me that stupid tone!" My nails dig deep behind his ears.

Jimmy sits up straighter. We're about to fight, I feel it.. Yet he still holds me to his legs. "What snarky tone? Also, I've been going in early to get stuff done so we're home together at night. A few weeks ago you said you missed me because I was taken from work. Now that I've been coming home free with you, you tell me you want to move out. What the hell am I suppose to do, Penn?! I've been doing everything you want me to do and I'm still not good enough to you lately!!"

"Don't fucking yell at me!!" I shove his chest to the cushions.

"Don't fucking yell at me then!!" His grip on my legs tightens.

I pull his arm hair to let the grip go. "You're pissing me off." I stand up.

Jimmy stands up as well. I hate height differences.. "And I'm not getting pissed off?"

I step on the wooden coffee table and look down. "I don't know! I don't care!" He steps on the couch, sinking two inches and yet, he's still towering over me. "You're going to fall.."