Taehyung's POV:
It always hurt seeing you with him. My chest would always become dense and I found it hard to breathe. Hands would shake and words would get caught in my throat. You would stand before me, your back only in view as I hear your voice speak highly of him. I envied him.
Currently you had your head on my knee as your eyes were locked on your phone. My hands found their way into your soft jet black hair, feeling every strand. The room remained silent, the only sound heard was the howling of the wind and harsh raindrops hitting the window. The bed under us was comfortable, a pillow available however, you still chose to lay your head on my leg, and this simple gesture made me so happy. Time went by quite quickly in fact, it was when the rain suddenly stopped and everything went dead silent that I snapped out of my thoughts. Looking down at you, I could see that now you have your phone on your chest as your beautiful eyes were hidden behind your eyelids.
Sleeping. I thought, maybe. I then added heaving in a deep sigh.
I then craned my neck, reliving it from the strain of keeping it in one position for so long. Feeling slight cracks, a relaxed sigh passed my lips along with a deep chuckle. Returning to my original place, you suddenly groaned, stirring slightly before you slowly peeled open your eyes. Subconsciously I held my breath feeling that tight feeling in my chest originate as my wide eyes met with your sleepy ones.
"Did I fall asleep?" You ask brining your hands up to rub your sleepy eyes in such a cute manner.
"Yeah." Was a simple reply as I did not want to risk stumbling on my words.
You then sat up taking off pressure from my now numb leg. Running my right hand over my thigh trying to provide feeling back to it, I watch as you turn around to face me, worry clear on your features.
"Tae!" You begin, that mere word sending shivers through me.
"I fell asleep." You finish, pouting your bottom lip.
I ever so slightly slanted my head to the side confused how you falling asleep in a bad thing. However, once the words 'I didn't reply to him' my whole world stopped. I starred at you as you fumbled for your phone, the screen beaming onto your face. I felt the thick lump in my throat form causing it hard to swallow, hard to keep the painful tears from freely flowing down my cheeks. Slowly, I lower my head looking down at my hands wishing you had yours clasped around them, wishing to have you love me like you love him. My train of thought got the better of me and the only way I snapped out of these thoughts was when I felt the bed dip before me, startling me. Scared to look up, I heard your voice and I froze. Your warm hands grabbed onto mine slightly flinching at the lack of warmth mine had possessed.
"Tae, are you okay?" You ask and I feel my heart jump.
I slowly nod but by the sudden pressure I felt from you squeezing my hand I knew you knew I was lying. Not another word was said but you released one of my hands using your now free hand to place under my chin making me look up at you. I saw you, you looked so worried, you swallowed thick before I felt the tips of your fingers run across my cheeks. They were damp.
Was I crying?
"Why are you crying?"
And my response was to merely open my mouth, no words formed or said so I closed it. You starred hoping for an answer, so I breathed in once more building up courage to speak but the sound of your phone ringing interrupted me. His name flashed on the screen but even though you looked at it and saw his name, you ignored it and allowed the sound to fill the room.
"Tae, tell me what's wrong." You ask.
"I'm sorry." I begin and you stare confused.
"I'm sorry for loving you."
I watch as your eyes grow wide and watch your body tense. I felt my heart racing, my breathing coming out un even as I wait for some sort of reply, expecting one that will push daggers into my heart.
"Tae, you know. I-I, I, I don't love you like that..." You reply and I force a smile, one that wished it was a frown.
"I know." I breathe out, a laugh filled with sorrow passing my lips.
Inhaling sharp, I averted my gaze from you before moving off the bed.
"Don't be sad. Taehyung please." You whisper.
I turn to face you, you now sitting on the edge of the bed.
"It's not easy Jimin. To be forgotten." I say and see how your face drops, how you lower your head.
I took this moment to move towards the exist of your room but before I could simply wrap my fingers around your doors handle, your hand wrapped around my wrist tugging me back before your other hand pushed onto my left shoulder forcefully pushing me onto the door. You were shorter than me, so when you stepped closer and our chests were somewhat in contact, I couldn't help but grin as you had to look up at me. I felt your breath bush against my face before you surprised me. You latched your lips around mine and I didn't respond.
Once you pulled away, you spoke.
"I don't know why you love me but thank you."
I'm always left behind, in your past, present and future. I'll stay behind you and keep you up right, I will forever wish to be by your side one day. To be able to see your beautiful face and smile at you, to be able to make you smile the way he does. I'll say for you Jimin, but please don't forget me.
A/N
So my first perspective one shot. ENJOY!
L.T
