Describing how much I love you cannot be said in words. The amount of words available in the English language will never assist me in describing what I feel towards you. Not only is there absolutely no words I could say, but the words I do want to say are words I choke on. I always shake around you but also can't help but smile around you. Your mere presence lifts my mood and a 'thank you' is not enough to say to you.
I physically nor mentally thought I could fall in love, always pushed away that feeling, deciding to ignore it and never have anything to do with it. I've watched everyone around me fall in love, gain a small or massive crush but I never did. I mean at one point I began to think if I was normal.
Today you sit in front of me; you were day dreaming and I couldn't help by stare. I loved seeing how you would zone out and your dark pupils would dilate this would assist in the emphasis on your bright yet faded blue eyes. You were zoned out thinking of what I had just said, you had your lips parted but at times you would press them together, thinking. 'I don't get what you mean explain, please.' You whined and I blinked out of my thoughts, averting my gaze. I then allowed a laugh to pass my lips, one filled with love yet soft.
'It's simple, I mean how can you not understand that I envy you. I'm literally spelling it out for you.' I say raising my eyes to meet yours again.
Your eyes then narrowed before you pushed out your lips and turning away from me. At this moment, I want to say those three words, those three words that have the power to destroy what we have or grow this friendship. To something I desire. Seeing you mindlessly sitting before me wondering what I mean, from after all these years of saying things to you, at this moment, I want you to connect the dots and see how I feel towards you. I closed my eyes, lowering my head simply loving your presence, simply loving you being here and just talking to me. My hands were shaking, I could feel it, I could feel my legs want to give up on me when I decide to stand up. I can never handle being around you, can never control my heart nor body. I want to say so many things to you and today, at this moment, even if it will kill me. I will say it.
Time went slowly, because of my choice of blocking my vision. Feeling your warm hands wrap around my shaking ones startled me. It was a quick reaction, I shot my head up seeing how close you are now. Your grip tightened and your gaze felt much more intense.
'All these years...-'You whisper not once averting your gaze.
Too in shock to speak, I starred at you waiting in anticipation for you to complete your sentence. Now, I could see your lips form a little smirk, I watched as your eyes flickered, moved constantly from my eyes to our surroundings. You were nervous or hyped up, I couldn't tell.
'Do you like, like me?' You ask, humour detected in your voice. I felt my eyes roll unintentionally, of course you can change the mood in an instant. 'Fuck you' passed my lips before a slight laugh was followed. My laugh grew as I wanted to hold in the tears and screams begging to escape. You asked what was funny, your voice sincere and full of worry. My laugh died down ever so slightly and I swear to you that I froze that everything around me froze. I felt my heart jump, my whole body went tense. Have you ever felt confined in a small place, tied down and all you wanted to do was escape? That is exactly how I feel now, with your lips on mine. I didn't respond so you pulled away, fear in your eyes. 'Yes.' I whisper after a long silence. 'I do like, like you.'
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A / N
Hello all, today I say goodbye to these one shots. The 4th of September, I know I've told myself 200 but I'm a mess and I want to work on these books I have pushed in the back of mind. These one shots have ended and I loved the whole time I had with these. I leave you with this, my work that I placed my whole heart into. I want to thank you all so much for being here, I will continue writing, and I hope my writing has improved from my first one shot. Two of you will be worked on however until I complete Two of you and my new book 'Stitches' the yoonseok one shots will be placed on hold. Ah I hope you all loved this book just as much I did love writing it. Thank you all once again. Thank you all so much.
