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Jenna

I waited impatiently, as I sat on my bed. She was going to call me, Tay was really going to call me. I've waited so long to hear her voice, her laugh...she just makes everything better, to be honest. I couldn't ever tell her about me, though..nobody could ever know, but I have a feeling she's keeping secrets, too. Sooner or later, my phone began to light up and vibrate. Peering at the screen, I saw that it was an unknown number.

My heart literally about to explode, I answered it as I put it up to my ear, "hey," I spoke with charisma, maybe too much.

"Um..hi," she said. Her voice was cute, it was raspy and high-pitched.

I smiled, instantly getting happy at the thought of her being on the other line, I couldn't belive this was actually happening, "so what'd you want to call me about?" I asked, sinking back onto my bed.

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Tay

I kept on biting my bottom lip to stop myself from shaking, my eyes probably numb from all the tears, I had the bleach in one hand and a rope in the other, "J-jenna i'm g-gonna k-kill m-myself t-t-onight, okay?" I cried softly, "t-this is all too m-much and-" my voice broke off, and I began to sound hoarse, but I continued, "my life sucks ass, okay?"

"Tay..you're scaring me..what's going on with you?" the playfulness was out of her voice and she sounded genuinely worried for me, and even that made me feel a bit better. I liked her voice, it was nice and understanding.

I raked a hand through my messy dark hair and pulled my knees up to my chest, "w-well my Dad hit me and threw me to the f-f-floor..my mom has been high for days, and m-my girlfriend was cheating on me. We were dating for three weeks but still it hurts so much. How could she stop doing that? How could she stop liking me like that? How could someone be so insensitive? How could she just leave me, and go with someone else? She..she didn't even tell me. It probably would've hurt less if she just told me she wanted to break things off, but no...I feel so alone and broken and all I see is darkness and I wanted to say goodbye to you because from the past few days you've been the nicest to me..i feel..like i'm burning up right now. It's like i'm somewhere e-else, and I ca- I can't stop sh-h-haking, Jenna..oh god.." I stopped talking, and my lips were shuddering, and I dug my nails into my skin. I was terrified, and I didn't know what to do. Everything was hurting so much, and I felt bad for ranting to her like that, but she wanted to know.

"Tay?" she said, "I want you to take a slow, deep breath."

I did just that, inhaling and exhaling, "o-okay.."

"Now I want you to know that everything is going to be fine, alright? None of the things that happened to you are your faults. That girl is an idiot for cheating on you, you didn't do anything, okay? And your parents..that isn't any of your fault either. Those are mental descisions that had absoloutely nothing to do with you. I need you to stay strong, love. Can you do that?"

I cried at how nice she was being to me, and I shook my head, "Jenna but this hurts, it hurts so much and I want to kill myself."

"Don't say that Tay, you can't kill yourself Tay-"

"But I want to."

"You're so amazing, though."

"Am I?"

"Hell yeah! You're passionate, beautiful..and a lot of other things. And you're so talented, don't you want to live to achieve those talents of yours?"

I thought about what she said, and I blinked away hot tears, "I-i don't know anymore.."

"Well know this, the world is a hard place and if you're fragile you're going to get broken."

I stopped crying, and i took a deep breath, like I did before. My hands weren't shaking anymore, and I focoused on Jenna's voice, "i know." I said in a small voice, my eyes damp.

"your emotions aren't invalid, and trust me I know how hard it is to control them, but please promise me and yourself, that you'll never attempt this type of thing ever again? I care about you too much for you to leave this world."

I chuckled, although nothing was funny, "we met eight days ago."

I heard her laugh, and it was like honey, "this is true."

There was a comfortable silence, "thank you." I said to her.

I felt her smiling, I heard it in her voice, "don't you ever feel alone."

I bit my lip, before saying this, my heartbeat beating through my chest and my face reddening, "d-do you want me?" I blurted out. It was an indifferent question, but I knew she knew what I meant.

"Yeah."

I looked down at my hands, "me too."

She laughed silently, "then we're girlfriends, then."

"Literally.." I trialed off, chuckling.

"Cute." was all she said after that, "but listen, I have to go, but text me, okay?"

I smiled, "o-okay."

I then hung up the phone.